its her life..

:D

2009-03-05T02:35:00.000+11:00

third year

2009-03-02T22:50:00.002+11:00

blogger's not letting me upload the pictures from sydney and the whole 'buying the camera' process properly..

bah!

uni's started and i hate the melbourne model.

♥ Lynn

coloured

2009-02-25T01:22:00.001+11:00

This poem was nominated by UN as the best poem of 2008, Written by an
African Kid

When I born, I black
When I grow up, I black
When I go in Sun, I black
When I scared, I black
When I sick, I black
And when I die, I still black

And you white fellow
When you born, you pink
When you grow up, you white
When you go in sun, you red
When you cold, you blue
When you scared, you yellow
When you sick, you green
And when you die, you gray
And you calling me colored ??

♥ Lynn

pictures coming up :D

2009-02-22T22:55:00.003+11:00

i got myself a nice new sleek sexy baby :D

will update about the process later with pictures :p

♥ Lynn

the sudden and the living

2009-02-22T00:01:00.003+11:00

so today, a weird thing happened..

my family + zeke headed over to Springvale for some Asian lunch (god knows why my dad wanted to head over there) and after that, do some grocery shopping (ahhh, so thats why..)

and we saw this big sign "live lobsters 41.99 per KG"

i swear my eyes lit up.

anyway, bottom line is that my mother bought the 2.5kg sucker and we brought him home only to later have him chopped up into little (very messy) slices and eaten RAW.

the poor little thing was still wriggling around even without its head.

and we were morbid (and quite freaked out) to have him/her/it(?) watch us eat him/her/it.

*there aren't any pictures, and i apologize, i still need to buy myself a nice, sleek little baby- i cant decide on one!

anyway, today was also the day that we made the really rash decision to follow my parents + richie&sha (the we being zeke and i, damn, i realize most of the time now i blog using 'us' and 'we' and not 'me' or 'i' anymore) to Sydney from Wednesday till Saturday.

now, seeing that the last time i headed over to Sydney, i was around 11 years old and its pretty darn fuzzy.

if you've headed to Sydney lately, give me a holler and let me know of things to do!!!!

ps. dont ask me why we ate the lobster sashimi today when we would be getting even better raw stuff up there :D

♥ Lynn

just dance

2009-02-21T04:14:00.001+11:00

♥ Lynn

mum song

2009-02-20T01:53:00.000+11:00

♥ Lynn

love games

2009-02-15T12:24:00.002+11:00

Let's have some fun, this beat is sick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick
Let's have some fun, this beat is sick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick

I wanna kiss you
But if I do then I might miss you, babe
It's complicated and stupid
Got my ass squeezed by sexy cupid
Guess he wants to play, wants to play
A love game, a love game

Hold me and love me
Just want touch you for a minute
Maybe three seconds is enough
For my heart to quit it

Let's have some fun, this beat is sick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick
Don't think too much just bust that kick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick

Let's play a love game
Play a love game
Do you want love?
Or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans, the love game

Let's play a love game
Play a love game
Do you want love?
Or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans, the love game

I'm on a mission
And it involves some heavy touching, yeah
You've indicated you're interest
I'm educated in sex, yes
Now I want it bad, want it bad
A love game, a love game

Hold me and love me
Just want touch you for a minute
Maybe three seconds is enough
For my heart to quit it

Let's have some fun, this beat is sick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick
Don't think too much just bust that kick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick

Let's play a love game
Play a love game
Do you want love?
Or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans, the love game

Let's play a love game
Play a love game
Do you want love?
Or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans, the love game

I can see you staring there from across the block
With a smile on your mouth and your hand on your (huh!)
The story of us, it always starts the same
With a boy and a girl and a (huh!) and a game

Let's play a love game
Play a love game
Do you want love?
Or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans, the love game

Let's play a love game
Play a love game
Do you want love?
Or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans, the love game

♥ Lynn

101.5 *edited because isaac retaliated and i realized i missed one part out.

2009-02-15T00:23:00.005+11:00

Do this and repost it with the title:
I've done --- out of the 132 stupid things.

Level 1
(X) Smoked A Cigarette
(X) Smoked A Cigar
(X) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(X) Drank Alcohol

SO FAR: 4

Level 2
(X) Are / Been In Love
(X) Been Dumped
(X) Shoplifted
() Been Fired
() Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 7

Level 4
(X) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(X) Skipped School
() Slept With A Co-worker
(X) Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 10

Level 5
(X) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends if its even considered a crush :p
() Been To Paris
() Been To Spain
(X) Been On A Plane
(X) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 13

Level 6
(X) Eaten Sushi
() Been Snowboarding
() Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook
(X) Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 15

Level 7
() Been In An Abusive Relationship
(X) Taken Pain Killers (Medicine)
(X) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(X) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(X) Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 19

Level 8
() Had A Tea Party
(X) Flown A Kite
(X) Built A Sand Castle
() Gone mudding (offroading)
(X) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 22

Level 9
(X) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(X) Gone Sledging
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(X) Been Lonely
(X) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 27

Level 10
(X) Watched The Sun Set
(X) Felt An Earthquake
(X) Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 30

Level 11
(X) Been Tickled
() Been Robbed / Vandalized
(X) Been cheated on
(X) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 33

Level 12
(X) Won A Contest
() Been Suspended From School
(1/x) Had Detention does it count if i talked the teacher out of it?
(X) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 35.5

Level 13
() Had / Have Braces
(X) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(X) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 37.5

Level 14
(X) Hated The Way You Look
(X) Witnessed A Crime
(X) Pole Danced
(X) Questioned Your Heart
(X) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 42.5

Level 15
(X) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(X) Been Lost
(X) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(X) Swam In The Ocean
(X) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 47.5

Level 16
(X) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(X) Played Cops And Robbers
(X) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(X) Sang Karaoke
(X) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 52.5

Level 17
(X) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(X) Made a Prank Phone Call
(X) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(X) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 56.5

Level 18
(X) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(X) Watched The Sun Set With Someone You Care/Cared About
(X) Blown Bubbles
(X) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere

SO FAR: 60.5

Level 19
(X) Crashed A Party
() Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(X) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(X) Had A Wish Come True
() Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 63.5

Level 20
(X) Worn Pearls
() Jumped Off A Bridge
(X) Swore at the teacher, in front of them
(X) Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 66.5

Level 22
(X) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
() Kissed A Fish
(X) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(X) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 69.5

Level 23
(X) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
() Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(X) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(X) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 72.5

Level 24
(X) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(X) Climbed A Tree
(X) Had/Been in a tree house.
(X) Been scared to watch scary movies alone

SO FAR: 76.5

Level 25
(X) Believed In Ghosts
() Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
() Gone Streaking
() Visited Jail

SO FAR: 77.5

Level 26
(X) Played Chicken
(X) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(X) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
(X) Broken A Bone
(X) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 82.5

Level 27
() Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
(X) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
(X) Caught A Butterfly
(X) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(X) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 86.5

Level 28
() Mooned/Flashed Someone
(X) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(X) Cheated On A Test
(X) Forgotten Someone's Name
(X) French Braided Someones Hair
() Gone Skinny Dipping
() Been Kicked Out Of Your House
(X)Tried to hurt yourself

SO FAR: 92.5

Level 29
(X) Rode A Roller Coaster
(X) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
(X) Had A Cavity
() Black-Mailed Someone
(X) Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 95.5

Level 31
(X) Been Used
(X) Fell Going Up The Stairs
() Licked A Cat
(X) Bitten Someone
(X) Licked Someone

SO FAR: 99.5

Level 32
() Been shot at/or at gunpoint
(X) Had sex in the rain
(X) Flattened someones tires
() Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on
() Got five dollars or less worth of gas

SO FAR: 101.5

♥ Lynn

Turbaconucken

2009-02-10T23:16:00.001+11:00

Turbaconucken

A chicken inside a duck inside a turkey, all wrapped in bacon.

stolen from: thisiswhyyou'refat

♥ Lynn

work, play and the tripple X.

2009-02-08T17:31:00.006+11:00

zeke and i finally watched twilight and the changeling.

being a little bit of a twilight fan (which is a little bit of an understatement), i was a little disappointed with the movie.

the changeling was a really really really good movie. it wasnt really what i expected it to be and really pulled at my heart strings. i cried so many times! just the possibility of having those kind of things happen just made me depressed.

*while we're on the sad note, my condolences to all the people who lost their belongings, their homes, their loved ones, their lives at the fires yesterday.

♥ Lynn

little to big

2009-02-05T17:28:00.003+11:00

funny thing.

today before i left the house, zeke and i got into this huge insane screaming, crying, hysterical fight.

after a couple of hours we made peace and well, sealed the deal.

not being in the right state of mind, i put this on my facebook.

"lynn totally loves what comes after a fight"

stupid stupid.

why? because when i came back, this greeted me.

forty over messages?!
sigh,
ps. james, making up after a fight in that way makes making up that much better

♥ Lynn

nothing else i can say

2009-02-04T23:51:00.000+11:00

lady gaga's latest single :D

♥ Lynn

facebook tag. thats a first.

2009-01-29T00:41:00.000+11:00

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you!

1. i always thought that i would end up dating someone good looking but pretty much a bloody blundering idiot even though i wanted a nice decent boy.

2. i started drinking at the age of 12. my uncle was keen on training me to have a high alcohol tolerance. (i did. and i dont anymore)

3. when i was in PLC, i ballooned to a size 14-16. conveniently hidden under the uniform.

4. before that, i was anorexic.

5. after ballooning, i was bulimic.

6. when i was younger, i went to some chinese temple where they made me drink some kind of tea which contained burnt contents of a piece of paper that had words on it.

7. after that, everynight for the next year, i would try to kill myself by jumping out the window of my parents bedroom. they always managed to stop me.

8. apparently i became more vicious after they showed me bibles- i would kick them, bite them and scratch them.

9. i can not stand the taste of beer.

10. i pierced my navel at 16 in hopes of it being an incentive to grow thinner.

11. i once got my hair braided in bali and had 64 strands..

..my sister had 32.

12. i never dared to dye my hair a really light colour because i'm scared of the regrowth.

13. alot of people think i like to party, but i actually really like to just be at home - to cuddle up on the bed and watch a movie.

14. my favorite animals are dolphins. i've swam with them twice in my life and will continue to every opportunity i get.

15. i was trained for a year at a singing academy and i really love to sing.

16. i havent been able to breathe from my nose (unless i force myself) since i was 12.

17. my right arm is shorter than my left because i broke it and shattered the end of my olecranon.

18. i didnt really want to have my nose ring (hole?) close. i miss it. sometimes.

19. i like to keep my receipts. whenever i go somewhere, i would get a receipt... that i will throw out when i am at home... eventually.

20. i cant throw anything out! i keep wrapping papers and ribbons that date back at least 4-5 years.

21. i was a child model. i had a portfolio and all that stuff. i even got free branded clothes!

22. i was scouted in KL while i was shopping and asked to join a modeling company or something.

23. i will never ever again get into that field.

24. i dieted so much when i was younger that i cannot tell when i am hungry anymore. i know when i am hungry when i get headaches, or when my stomach growls. if they dont, i wont eat because i wouldnt realize i am hungry.

25. i am completely and utterly in love with zik zak :p

♥ Lynn

the muscles

2009-01-28T12:18:00.002+11:00

i never used to understand how couples who sleep together, and not just in the sexual sense, dont actually cuddle to sleep.

i didnt use to get that because zeke and i cuddle to bed alot

but lately, i dont know if its just me working so much or sumthing or rather, but my muscles are aching like a crazy $%^!!!

♥ Lynn

obligated 40s

2009-01-27T23:30:00.007+11:00

happy chinese new year guys!!

no, i havent fallen off the face of the earth. its just that zeke has been back and i have been working every single day at Satsuki to save up.

every moment not working, has been spent with zeke, my family, max, and random friends here and there.

oh yes, since zeke's been back, the sun has been out more often.

and i do mean that quite literally and not just in my little fantasy world/bedroom - not that i would really care whether the sun is out or not in bed.

it being summer and all, and it being australia, the summer weather has once again reached its 'obligated 40s'.

the obligated 40s is when the aussie weather decides that, hey, summer isnt summer until we hit at least 40 degres celcious.

god have mercy on all of us.

may we all not die of skin cancer.

and this week its going to be worst! the lowest temperature is mid 20s and for the remaining of the weak, the weather is going to be about 40 degs during the day.

can anyone say iamgoingtodieofskincancer?

j.f.c. (jaayysuuuusssfucccckkinnnnchriiiissttt)

anyway, its not really been all saving and no play, of course there's play with zeke around.

last week on friday we headed out to Doncaster Shopping Centre and i bought two new pairs of Zoe Wittners (shoes, bitches, SHOES!) , two shorts, two shirts.

a nice pair of sandals that i cant wear because they hurt but i only bought so that i will get 80% off the total price of the two shoes and a $170 pair of heels that are so SM that my mother reckons that all i need is a whip and i'll be able to whip zeke in bed. the sandals were $90. what i paid?

$54.

two tops from jayjays - $30.

two shorts- target (wow lynn, way to go, queen of cheap) which without discount totals to about $80. what i paid - $30.

anyway, when sunday came, i was all up for a break, working all week really took its toll.

so we woke up early to head to Camberwell market and then later headed to the city for the Arts and Craft market before heading off to S. Kilda for the other market.

at the Arts and Craft market in the city is awesome!~ zeke and i got this overpriced but adorable cupcake

between the market place by the beach and the arts and craft market we stopped by at some chinese new year even thing
and zeke and i couldnt help but feel sorry for the poor guy in that depressing getup.
between the market and Luna Park, there were people giving out free MIZONE and look at how fcking greedy everyone was! (zeke and me included)
we got 4 bottles :D

it being so depressingly hot, we had to have snow cones :D"ahhhh... much better~"
oh jaysus! is that how long i havent camwhored that i look like THIS when i attempt to?!
a tad bit better but still really =__________=

anyway, hope everyone had a good weekend and a great money filled chinese new year :D

♥ Lynn

no internet so... hiatus

2009-01-25T17:59:00.000+11:00

♥ Lynn

♥ explosive bottles.

2009-01-10T22:51:00.005+11:00

as i woke up a couple of days ago i felt around blindly for my phone and dialed isaac's number. (being apart like this led to the development of the 'wake up/go to sleep' rule). i was greeted with a nice sleepy (kind of sexy) husky 'good morning sweeetheart' followed by a 'i have good news and bad news'.

the night before i told zeke that he should tell his parents about him wanting to change his flight from the 8th of feb to some time next week.

he proceeded to say, "i cant get the flight that we wanted and has been changed to the 13th."

"FEBUARY?!"

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he bloody played me.. and he's coming back next week instead :)

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life has been so ordinary, its not funny.

on the bright side, work's started again - more money for me :D and since chinese new year is coming up- alot of people'll be heading off and that means more shifts for me.

bad part? i'll be leaving isaac alone at home - practice to be my future house husband, perhaps? ><

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i've got this huge urge to get another tattoo.

♥ Lynn

poker face//just dance

2009-01-10T14:40:00.001+11:00

♥ Lynn

when i get married

2009-01-08T00:56:00.002+11:00

(this is the part where isaac runs far far away)

i will be a total and utter detail freak.

the invitations, the place cards (at the dinner), the decorations, the bouquet, the dress, the brides maids dresses, the makeup - minimal, the hair, the music that will be played - it. must. be. live.

any women who come to my wedding dressed in black will have to wear this hideous peach coloured toga i will have handy.

anyone.

consider yourselves warned.

i even told zeke that i would have a bouncer specially to ensure that everyone's in proper attire.

his reaction?

=_= "

and dont give me that look, its a day most women would look forward to.. which brings me to..

congratulations samantha tham~ :D

♥ Lynn

the husky thief

2009-01-08T00:50:00.000+11:00

♥ Lynn

i just realized i could never really be one of those people who are uber tattooed ><

2009-01-07T17:25:00.004+11:00

yesterday (pause..) oh my god yesterday!!

the begining was a tad bit boring- the family headed out to boxhill for some brunch at some quirky little place - no i dont remember its name, do some grocery shoppings for sushi night , take pictures for our passport applications, do the little odds and ends here and there.

the fun began when we left boxhill. we got home and our neighbors were out so we socialized and help introduce max to their new puppy - this cute little thing!

max was so humongously huge compared to the little puppy that the puppy thought that max was bullying him and yelped away -oops ><

anyway, our neighbor showed us her house and there's this huge pool there with her daughters in there swimming.

the next thing i know, their other dog - Indi - jumps right into the pool .

what really got my eyes wide and - i still cant believe it myself - Cheryl got in! we're talking fully clothed and she even shoved Hugo (her poodle) in!

the next thing was blurry because the next thing i know, i voluntarily jumped in and splashed around with the three dogs, one insanely young at heart woman, and two girls.

after a good half hour i realized - god damnit! my phone!

i screamed bloody profanities for a good 10 seconds before i realized that it wasnt with me - yeah. i scared myself to death for nothing. -_-"

i splashed around under the sun for a bit too long that sushi night was just a half hour thing before i passed out in bed at 8.30pm..

i woke up at 12am cursing myself for being such a douch for sleeping so damn early when i knew somewhere in my puny little brain that exactly this would happen.

managed to finally get back to bed at about 2am and slept till 10.30am today.

had to send dad to the airport (yin wasnt present, she had to work) and then after that, we headed to the DFO.

god damnit i still didnt get to tell dad that i'm moving in with zeke.

anyway, DFO was a dissapointment today, i didnt see anything i wanted.

got back around 2.30pm and completely crashed. again.

jebus!

i just woke up - yes at 5.30ish -

i am a big fat sleepy pig.

***

about the title of this post, yeah.. as much as i love tatts.. i dont think i can be one of those people with heaps of huge tatts around their bodies

*no offense to anyone :)

♥ Lynn

here's to hoping i wont overdress

2009-01-06T02:59:00.000+11:00

am i really the type of girl who wants what she cant have?

apparently the alumni dinner'll be held again this year (what, they never had it before last year!) and this year, i am SO there :D

♥ Lynn

the trip up there

2009-01-06T00:56:00.004+11:00

yes, i had to indulge in a little over the top vanity before i started to blog

anyway, every not so often, Cindy, Misha and I would try to meet up and do the customary Max Brenners.

today, we made a little detour before MB.. we headed to ChoGao's for some lunch - the $10 express lunch specials were pretty good - small portions but perfect for small eaters like us :)

sat around gossiping like the gossip queens we are and then headed off to MB
and that is just MY portion: waffle with an extra pot of chocolate and a milk chocolate :)
by the end we were so damn full we couldnt walk right.

headed to Myer's for a bit..

tell me why the mannequin has his pants down?
and then to melbourne central and then headed off..

i naturally headed to Zeke's place to check up but the second i saw his bed..

i didnt wake up till zeke called me because he was worried that i didnt reply him for HOURS.

headed back and all was fine and dandy right until i got off the train.

there was a group of really rowdy dodgy boys drinking Jack Black (yes at 7.00pm) and shouting obscene things and i got really freaked out- wouldnt you have?

one girl vs three boys who were drunk like a sailors.

its no question about who would win out.

i frooze.

thank god there was a man (in a suit) who walked me halfway back to make sure the boys didnt follow or harass me.

thank you!

i was so scared about what could have happened that i dont think i even really said thank you to that guy. -_-"

***

on a completely different note, i helped paint these !!

yes, i am extremely proud :)

♥ Lynn

the alumni

2009-01-04T23:13:00.002+11:00

i wish i could have made it for Sri Sempurna's alumni dinner..

i miss the people i grew up with.

♥ Lynn

do the scars still hurt when it rains?

2009-01-04T01:12:00.004+11:00

guess what i just realized?

she deleted me.

no, i'm not upset. i'm amused.

i wonder how immature she can get.

get over it.isaac choose me.

its been what, a year and a half?

you even have a boyfriend now.

get over it.

♥ Lynn

the 2am deadline

2009-01-04T00:29:00.004+11:00

♥ Lynn

enough

2009-01-02T19:19:00.009+11:00

i'd rather lie in bed doing nothing than to see or talk to you.

♥ Lynn

welcoming change

2009-01-02T02:43:00.003+11:00

watched bedtime stories with my siblings the other day- was a nice 'kids only' outing :)

yin got her hair cut and the next day (yesterday), i followed suit.

the end results?

voila!

a new year, a little bit more daring.

its short-er; my fringe is anyway..

i havent had one in ages and it keeps poking my eye making me get annoyed but ..

2009's a good year for a couple of changes, no?

♥ Lynn

since boxing day

2009-01-01T16:57:00.004+11:00

i've finished reading all these books.

the remaining books of the twilight saga

i just cant wait for Stephenie Meyer to write up Midnight Sun. right after someone leaked her draft - its been on an indefinite halt. :(

the books were so good that i want to buy them all (although the second and fouth books werent great - i like the the (little) romance in book 4 so i'm gonna overlook its not-so-good-ness and it would be weird if i had all the books except new moon so..)

meh.

is it just a girly thing that causes me to be so into romantic stories?

***

its annoying. i havent been feelin like myself at all.. and i dont know why.

am i making a huge mistake?

***

happy new year!!

♥ Lynn

the uncool post

2008-12-29T22:54:00.004+11:00

i have decided that in my lifetime, i will never meet any celebrities (with the exception of David Copperfield when i was young and the flash made his eyes red and then, i was convinced that it was because he was magic that his eyes had a red centre and blue rims - i was only 8!!)

so to say the least, i've given up on meeting people like Mahathir or Obama or Beyonce or Lady GaGa. pfft. no way am i ever gonna be able to meet them.

so now, aiming a little lower, i've 'hit' blogerities (Perez Hilton doesnt count).

there is a higher chance of me meeting some famous blogger (cool people) after all.

example:

when i'm in malaysia i would always wonder what would happen if i saw 'the penguin' around or kenny sia. the irony is that i actually know people who know these blogerities but what am i supposed to say? what would anyone say? it would be so.. awkward. picture this:

"hey there, look, this is pathetic, (and i am pathetic) but please introduce me to 'the penguin'/kennysia/whatever blogger?"

my poor friend(s) would just have the biggest -_-" face and would probably start thinking of ways how to be rid of me.

when i was in singapore, i thought that if i ever saw xiaxue on the streets i would probably just stand there with my mouth right open wondering how any tiny person could wear so much pink or glitter or both. but most of all, i think i would just be like, 'whoa'

now that i am in melbourne, i reckon that the closest celebrity - blogger wise anyway that i could 'bump' into would be kimong. which i reckon would be awesome but i guess it would be like someone slapped me across the face with a slice of fish or something and i would be all O_o

sigh. this just had to be a rant about how uncool i am but want to know something?

i dont really care if i meet any celebrities of any sort - my life is pretty awesome as it is :)

♥ Lynn

seeing bloody murder

2008-12-29T22:44:00.002+11:00

alright i've been utterly horrible.

a few interesting things have happened to me.

lets start with the fight.

zeke and cara rented out their house to one of cara's friends-charlotte.

charlotte is one of cara's friends from church and after the whole incident with jaeson (stupid flasher) we thought that charlotte being one of cara's friends and all should be more responsible.

i went to do one of the house checkups on the 22nd and guess what i found?

i found the fridge open, rubbish bin right in front of the front door, recycle bin missing, food in pans on the stove, rubbish bin filled to the brim with food.

i was seething with anger!

i saw freaking red.

i called zeke and complained my heart out to him and when he told cara, cara told him that charlotte was on holiday and had been for over a week.

and i thought i was seeing red then.

this time.. i saw bloody murder.

dustbin right in front of the house gave away that the house has been unoccupied - what if ther ehad been a burglary? would she have been accountable for the damages then?

what about the pests that feasted on her leftover toast on the stove and the pile of rubbish in the bins?

what about the open fridge?!

anyway, the point was when she got back i confronted her and her excuse was this;

"you occasionally come in to clear up the mess how was i to know i had to tell you i was on holiday, how was i to know you were more than just the maid of the house?"

and i lost it right there and then.

in short it ended up in her being kicked out.

i went to work that night wanting to stab every customer with forks and when i got off work, i got over 20 missed calls from her.

lets just for the sake of the story ignore the fact that she apologised and promise to take better care of the house, shall we?

♥ Lynn

christmas and then boxing day and what comes after- recovery

2008-12-28T13:52:00.004+11:00

christmas eve

i woke up at zeke's house only to be picked up by my father and brother to head over to quarantine.

today was the day.

Max got sprung

and then spoilt to bits and pieces
and yes, the big as german shepherd is a house dog.

and then we had dinner with the family and some family friends..

and then the highlight.

present opening time XD

presents to me:
trench coat + knee high boots (dad). necklace (jun). diamond necklace + earring set(mum). MAC fake lashes (yin). chocolate (dad).

presents from me & zeke:
chess set (zeke's dad). cufflinks + tie (my dad). Salvatore ferragamo perfume (my mum). little photo stand thing that zeke made and i suggested (zeke's mum). cartilage piercings (shan). swavroski necklace (yin). domo pillow (shi). monopoly set (jun).

since there was a monopoly set..

mum, yin, jun and i took advantage of the situation and played monopoly till our eyes popped out of our heads.

christmas day.

a blur of waking up. having anisha and richie come over.. playing monopoly..having dinner with them and then going back to their house in preparation for ..

boxing day

(but of course not before a bit of gossip and catching up and stuff like that)

we got up at 4ish (yes thats right bitches) for the 5am Myer opening but Myer was the biggest dissapointment. i only bought two lip glosses and didnt even buy lingerie!

we then headed back to richies for a little nap and then headed to Essondon's DFO for MORE shopping :)

a little more successful this round with bits of Elle Macpherson lingerie and a new dress.

all in all i spent about $80 when everything on original prices were over $350.

i went back home and crashed completely.

until about 9pm and then couldnt sleep after =.=

the day after ; recovery

woke up and headed straight to tutor. got home. played monopoly (again) for an hour with the faimly and then headed out to work at satsuki.

work ran late.

we're talking till 11.30 but so worth it.

i took home about $150 for a very not busy, fun filled night.

and i even got to bring back heaps of food!!

the day after ; still recovering

.. stay tuned :)

hope everyone had a great great christmas and will have an even better new years!

♥ Lynn

UGH

2008-12-25T22:11:00.001+11:00

boxing day. its flat out sales every friggin where and i am just so not in the shopping mood.

sigh sigh!

♥ Lynn

mum's santa!

2008-12-25T22:02:00.000+11:00

♥ Lynn

the big ho ho ho

2008-12-24T17:39:00.003+11:00

Merry Christmas eve !

oh wow. thats dizzy-fying.

♥ Lynn

cuff me

2008-12-24T03:32:00.002+11:00

i'm utterly horrible at saving money. its terrible! and its not as if i really buy heaps of things for myself, i just tend to spend money on things that are a little.. not so selfish. and no, its not some kind of 'praise me' post.

its more of a, if i didnt buy my family dinner (enter number here) i would have saved (enter amount of money here).

ugh!

i really dont even think that they appreciate it.

i mean, its not the point of whether they appreciate it or not, thats not why i did it. but it would be nice.

i bought my dad's present today.

all i need now is my mother's present and i am so stumped there!

jebus!

♥ Lynn

christmas bonus!

2008-12-24T01:26:00.001+11:00

did i mention i love love love working at satsuki?

i got a christmas card from my bosses today.. with $100 stuffed inside.

NICE

♥ Lynn

the finger and the eye

2008-12-20T02:34:00.003+11:00

oh wow.

i havent worn contacts in so long that i couldnt take it out yesterday.. and i just thought, hey you know, maybe i'm just a little out of practice.

but today, turns out i really AM out of practice. i couldnt take out my damn contact!! took me 15 mins and now i'm typing this partially blind.

what happened to your glasses, you ask. well, i bloody broke my miumiu glasses!!

sigh, fixable, but i cant seem to drag my ass out of the house to box hill for that.

sigh. sigh.

tutorings have been going well.

anyway, back to the main topic.

i even had problems PUTTING the contacts in my eye and getting used to it. bloody hell!

the last last time i used contacts was on halloween and i must have been drunk as or tired as butt to just throw the contacts in a container and forget about them.

and literally forgot about them.

i havent worn that pair since and its expired now.

♥ Lynn

eternity.

2008-12-18T01:43:00.007+11:00

so today i went off to Doncaster with the family for a little bit of 'scouting'

*the tree looks damn barren, i'm sorry, it was taken mid decorating

scouting for things that people might want.

seeing that i've done most of mine, you would think that i got to sit back and relax..
but no.

i've got to look for something for

my sister

i sort of feel mean about giving her A birthday and christmas present but she was such a bitch about the price of the present that i dont know if i even should bother buying one for her- i mean, who takes out a calculator when they find out the price of the present, divide that price by 2 and then divides it again (because the present is from zeke and me) and then scoffs at the price and says, you're only spending THIS much on my christmas present?! jebus christ. come on! give me a bit of credit here..i bought you something from freaking swavroski and when i gave it to you, you freaking cried because you didnt want something so expensive and then you go and do THAT

i swear i just wanted to smack the bejebus out of her.

my mom

i thought maybe the coasters she liked but its so not personal and come on!its such a family present and not so much individual. meh. what do you get for the woman who raised you?

my dad

cuff links? i dont know!! HELP!

on the bright side, i got a present for my bosses already so i can breathe easy there.

and i went back to look at those shoes that i saw and i decided that they were overrated.. what's not over rated are the BEAUTIFUL pair that i saw at (Zoe) Whittner's for $170. the irony, i held back from buying the $70 pair from Novo but ended up falling in love with a pair more expensive than the first. bejebus me!

***

i have decided that once i've saved ***** amount of money, i will reward myself to one of these:

half eternity ring- diamonds in a princess cut

half eternity ring - diamonds in emerald cut

eternity ring in princess cut (small)

eternity ring in princess cut (medium)

*side note: who.. i didnt really notice the faint tan lines on the fourth finger until now O_o

also, i realize the diamonds are blurry-my hand was shaking! i cant wait to buy myself one of those babiess!!

♥ Lynn

the return of -

2008-12-17T23:41:00.002+11:00

my first visit to CHINAbar and it was shiteous to say the least.

i ordered Hainanese Chicken Rice and the soup was too salty, the rice was dry and salty and is obvious it isnt fresh and the chicken was so fatty and rubbery!

ick.

never again.

***

christmas present for mum and dad and i have no idea what to get them - why do they not, at least, hint, what they want? when i have kids i will hint my butt off!!

♥ Lynn

the curly tales

2008-12-17T16:56:00.001+11:00

Gay penguins given own eggs to care for

Penguins caught stealing eggs from straight couples in an attempt to become fathers have been given their own to look after following protests.

Zoo keepers moved the male birds away from the rest of the penguins to avoid problems as hatching season approaches.

But angry visitors to Polar Land in China complained it was not fair for the males to stop becoming surrogate fathers.

Following the protests, zookeepers gave the pair two eggs laid by an inexperienced first-time mother.

"They've turned out to be the best parents in the whole zoo," on zoo keeper said.

"We will try to arrange for them to become real parents themselves with artificial insemination."

Despite being gay, it is understood the three-year-old male birds are still driven by an urge to be fathers.

♥ Lynn

botox and lip plumping

2008-12-17T01:35:00.005+11:00

i have such a thing for lingerie its not even funny anymore.

my wallet humongously lighter and shopping bags humongously bigger.. i would have to say that yesterday was a pretty good shopping day :D

i've fallen in love with garter belts. >< (Agent Provocateur garter belts for Christmas?)

my back has been a pain lately, i think it must have been that time mid year when i fell down the stairs the morning of my damn immunology paper.

mum and i have been spending heaps of time together and its been good for us-for our relationship.

i got another job!

i'm now a tutor, so to speak. literally.

i'm gonna be paid to talk and help correct someone's english.

according to some people i know, its my dream job-getting paid to talk =.=

i dont think i talk that much!!

those shoes are still haunting my dreams..i think i might just cave in and buy a pair..

and perhaps also a pair of boots seeing my last pair decided to die on me.

why must the heel come off!? but i guess after close to 4 years of faithful service,its time to put it to rest.

with the new pair-nothing too sexy this time. [i think thats more a note to self than anything else.] something more down to earth (literally) and without those spank me buckles on the side.

sigh. i like clothes and thing that are sexy and pretty and sweet but my everyday style is so grunge and .. dirty - i just woke up and i found these somewhere

meh.

i hate to admit it but i read xiaxue and her latest 'guide to life' got me thinking..i might SO do that!

fat face syndrome. bah!

♥ Lynn

single ladies - parody

2008-12-14T15:51:00.001+11:00

from beyonce to justin timberlake..

NICE

♥ Lynn

the big OHNO!

2008-12-12T23:11:00.003+11:00

results - so relieved!

my father's trying to make amends but i seem to be pushing him away. not that i dont want him to make amends but because it might be harder for me to tell him if he's nice to me that i want to move out.

my mother and i have been spending more time together, maybe its the fact that i am moving out that we're getting closer and talking more and giggling like little girls and talking about relationships and spending time with Max.

life brings us unexpected twists and turns.. bring it!

ps. what do you buy your bosses?

♥ Lynn

i have a weakness for vampires

2008-12-12T02:14:00.003+11:00

i kept wondering why in the trailers of 'twilight', Edward Cullen played by Robert Pattison looked familiar.

at first i thought, he looked like Chuck Bass played by Ed Westwick and then it just hit me..

ROBERT PATTISON IS CEDRIC DIGGORY IN HARRY POTTER!

zeke, watch twilight with me when you come back?

♥ Lynn

accents..

2008-12-12T01:57:00.001+11:00

British accents are damn sexy!

swoon!

♥ Lynn

broken men

2008-12-11T19:18:00.006+11:00

i think i have a thing for broken men.

take the gossip girl series for example,

spoiler allert for season 2 episode 13!!

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i never found Chuck appealing until this episode..

when he lost his father and Blair had to be all caring and loving and try to 'save' him and he was so sexy and sad and broken and cute.

i realize that that is me.

i need(ed) a guy who i can save and who can save me to have a successful start to a relationship (i think this ties in with the boy needing me as much as i need him bit in the last tag i did)

meh.

♥ Lynn

shoes shoes shoes

2008-12-11T19:13:00.000+11:00

i fell in love with another pair of heels.. $170..

..the $70 heels sound damn good right now.

tomorrow before work- hit the factory outlet!

♥ Lynn

10 things i hate about you

2008-12-11T01:21:00.002+11:00

10 things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now, don't mention names:

i'm moving out. i'm not going to make the same mistake you did; i will say goodbye..to you.
sometimes i wish things turned out differently..
thank you for making an effort to be better
leave him, he's no good for you
put on some damn weight
stop worrying about other people and concentrate on what YOU want for once.
let me give you everything
you werent good enough for him, i wish your life's miserable now that he's with me (bitch)
you're an asshole and i hope you get arrested for it one day.
i cant believe you were having sex at 12!

9 things about yourself:

i hardly ever buy things on impulse
i seem to never be able to save money
i think i lie to myself more than i let myself believe
i'm a big talker and a big fat chicken
i want an anchor piercing next to my tattoo
i want MORE tattoos
i stayed a virgin till after 18 (i dont really understand why people find this hard to believe)
i've found the one
i have to sleep with a blanket even if its freaking hot.

8 ways to win my heart:

need me as much as i need you
call my bluff
see me at my lowest and not run away
help me overcome my insecurities
bring me out on a nice first date
romanticize me
be a gentlemen
stand up for me

7 things that cross your mind a lot:

how do i tell him that i'm moving out
where else can i find work
how can i save more money
should i buy those shoes?
i wonder what is he up to now..
did i turn off name random appliance
should i buy that?

6 things I do before I fall asleep:

shower
drink water
use the net
move everything off my bed
turn off the net
try to remember if there are clean clothes to wear

5 people who mean a lot:

isaac
zaneta
family
loved ones (no, i wont specify who they are.. there are too many people who mean alot to me)
the Hans

4 things I'm wearing right now:

a robe
glasses
tragus ring
ring

3 songs that you listen to often:

'hot n cold' katy pery
'poker face' lady gaga
'so what' pink

2 things you want to do before you die:

get married
have children

1 confession:

i have had girl crushes before but was always too scared to take it a step further

♥ Lynn

if i were your vampire..

2008-12-10T16:14:00.007+11:00

so after thinking about it and having some people tell me that the book is pretty good..

i decided to buy myself a copy of 'twilight' yesterday before work

here's my verdict, its a sweet and a pretty good book, i love how it starts out in the begining but towards the climax (it was a climax) but it could have given a tad more oomph(!). the book did leave me wanting to know more and what happened (or is it mostly because i'm just curious?). either way, i'm going to be reading the next few installments :D

i love how she (stephenie meyer) changed why vampires cant go out in direct sunlight and stepped out of the vampire square. i loved how wonderfully simple and complex she made their (edward and bellas) relationship seem. it reminded me of first loves and all that..

anyway, back to my interest in the next few books..(this is the part where the christmas wish list comes in..)

♥ Lynn

you melt my heart..

2008-12-08T19:39:00.006+11:00

the mms that i sent to zeke that he didnt get :(

the rearrangement our cupboard..

PONTIANAK

i went to watch this with bryan today

ohmygoddd, isowanttowatchthismovieeeee

♥ Lynn

rantie

2008-12-08T01:37:00.002+11:00

ever since gossip girl came out.. i dont think i should use my 'xoxo, you know you love me' thing anymore.. ugh.

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

to stay committed

2008-12-08T01:18:00.004+11:00

today a friend of mine, kai asked me "how (do i) manage to stay committed" and i realized that people in their 20s do tend to have a bit of an issue about committing (but of course, not generalizing here) and finding the right one and sometimes the one that they found is more interested in raking up notches and bedding all the mr. right nows and are not interested at all about mr. right..

..yet.

come on! when i was in school i just wanted to find mr right nows and if he were right, the 'now' part would just drop off (yes, i realize this is from some book but i dont remember) and i was dating like some desperado (okay okay, i wasnt really thinking about the 'now' part dropping off at all). any slob (some of them nice, some of them were just.. slobs) that returned or showed interest, i dated.

yes, i was that pathetic.

anyway, moving away from the non-point.

he (kai, not the exes) made me realize, once again, how damn lucky isaac and i are..

the point?

zeke, i'm lucky to have you.. and i'm sorry i'm such a bitch.

(i have a huge issue about being selfish and not selfish- selfish that i want isaac to spend time with me online when he's overseas, not selfish by saying that he should spend time with the singaporean friends - how often does he go back anyway, i 'can deal with being apart' and not having 'our' time - and then just being stupid after because he listened to my 'unselfish' side when all i really am IS selfish. aiyayay.. girls are complicated and i really dont think that we understand ourselves most of the time.. well, at least i dont.)

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

knee bruising

2008-12-07T23:15:00.005+11:00

what do you think about oral sex?

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

christmas wish list

2008-12-07T20:02:00.007+11:00

MAC cosmetics - lustreglass 'love nectar'or tinted lipglass -'underage'

any of the 'chicago stars books' by susan elizabeth phillip exception of 'match me if you can'

any of the post secret books :)

self presents

sony cybershot Tseries or nikon coolpix

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

roller coaster ride

2008-12-07T13:50:00.005+11:00

the past week has been a roller coaster of emotions.

being away from isaac is damn bloody hard to say the least and we got into numerous fights.

i admit i could have been a little more enduring and such but when something like this happened a couple of times, its time to see and make him wear a little emotional blood.

take exhibit A.

i got up at 9am (aussie time) and had a long full day visiting Max and then work and i get home at about 10.30pm (aus). the agreement with zeke was that we met online after work but he was out with friends so i told him to keep hanging out with them (i mean, how often is he back?)

even though he told me to go to bed if i was tired, i was determined to stay up so that we could have some alone time.. instead, i waited up till 2am (aus) until he got back and then he comes back with a whole bunch of friends. i admit, at this time, i was already starting to be a little annoyed- hang out all day, cant i just get some alone time with him!?

anyway, i didnt say anything and i thought, hey you know, eventually he'd get back to me but no, i waited for 20mins-half an hour for A reply of "i love you" or a kiss emoticon. and that just drove me mad. i mean, wouldnt you? and imagine how mad i felt at about -godknowswhattime-am my time.

bah. yesterday we had a showdown, so to speak.

yelling and shouting at each other on the phone and we just somehow couldnt really meet in the middle.

we finally did but then he had to leave for ROME last night-family holiday.

but thats not the point, the point is..

have a great flight and trip, baby!

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

i know.

2008-12-05T01:37:00.000+11:00

but sometimes its not enough.

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

the pink heart

2008-12-05T00:49:00.002+11:00

last last christmas i wished for this necklace

i was supposed to get it this year from isaac but he wasnt discrete enough and i figured it out mid exams :)

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

hormones

2008-12-04T23:31:00.002+11:00

did you know that oxytoxins that gives you cramps actually also make you feel more in love?

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

Westfield

2008-12-04T19:44:00.002+11:00

so yin and i went to Westfield today (Doncaster, you noobs!)and i fell in love with how they furnished the new extension of the place!
beautiful! (not the couple sharing spit)
although i did spend most of the shopping day like this
i did fall in love with a pair of heels

doesnt it just look gorgeous?i didnt buy it- maybe i would tomorrow :D

ohmygod! i lost my wallet! but thank god the honest people at the chocolate cafe there were honest and i got all my money and cards back!!

i was ultra worried because there were a bunch of school kids behind our table and i was so scared that they had taken it and left!!

and oh oh! i bought this nail thing that makes my nails look really really nice like they've been polished when they havent really been because their 'natural oils have been brought out' or something like that but i love how it makes my nails look! and i love the hand cream that comes with it. and i got the thing at student price! (50 effing percent off!~)

how was your day?

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

birthday dinner

2008-12-03T20:42:00.005+11:00

so i had to show someone the house today and then went for a bit of shopping..

and got confused between the type of shoe i want again.

but then now, i think i'm going to go for the one on the right.we celebrated my sister's birthday at some restaurant somewhere i dont remember

yeah. that summarizes it.

:)

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

i dont care

2008-12-03T00:10:00.003+11:00

its after twelve in melbourne so i can wish you if i want to..

happy birthday jessbabe!

.. YOU CRAZY BIKINIBIATCH- you owe me a lap dance ! bwahahaha - woman! i miss you la! when i get back we better meet up more than just once ;)

have a great one gila!

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

slipping into oblivion

2008-12-02T23:46:00.004+11:00

happy birthday roxy!

My little sister's growing up! she's got boobies now! (okay, embarassing.. umm) but seriously, she's- you are- an amazing little sister and although i dont show it often, i do appreciate you (at least until you hog the bathroom and i dont get to shower after work.. eee!) i love you yin :)

anyway, i spent the day out with my mother today ( we dont have any nice pictures :( ) and we headed out to zeke's place to pick up his ps3 controllers (he brought back his ps3 without the controllers-genious!) and then headed out for lunch at laksa king.

rasa malaya food is better!! god granted its further away from the city but desperate malaysians will travel the distance if they're desperate enough!!

i camwhored while my mother stared at me and while we waited for the food, discussed ex boyfriends

then we went over to visit max!!

max jumped on me and i fell flat on my arse!

my boy's so big now!!
but he still has a baby face ><
my heart broke a little when we had to put him back into his little cage - he kept trying to show us his sleeping area by going into it and coming out and looking at us and going in again- i think he wanted us to follow!
then after mum had to head over to the warehouse and we stopped at a kids store ware house for a bit where i bought this
mum dropped me off at melbourne central after so that i could get the train to work

i headed right to the pet store to look at the pets - bunnies
this little guy reminds me of buffy!~
then i headed to work and the day died there.

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

heart

2008-12-02T22:46:00.001+11:00

Teen lives 4 months with no heart, leaves hospital

D'Zhana Simmons says she felt like a "fake person" for 118 days when she had no heart beating in her chest. "But I know that I really was here," the 14-year-old said, "and I did live without a heart."

As she was being released Wednesday from a Miami hospital, the shy teen seemed in awe of what she's endured.

Since July, she's had two heart transplants and survived with artificial heart pumps — but no heart — for four months between the transplants.

Last spring D'Zhana and her parents learned she had an enlarged heart that was too weak to sufficiently pump blood.

They traveled from their home in Clinton, S.C. to Holtz Children's Hospital in Miami for a heart transplant.
But her new heart didn't work properly and could have ruptured so surgeons removed it two days later.

And they did something unusual, especially for a young patient: They replaced the heart with a pair of artificial pumping devices that kept blood flowing through her body until she could have a second transplant.

Dr. Peter Wearden, a cardiothoracic surgeon at Children's Hospital of Pittsburgh who works with the kind of pumps used in this case, said what the Miami medical team managed to do "is a big deal."

"For (more than) 100 days, there was no heart in this girl's body? That is pretty amazing," Wearden said.

The pumps, ventricular assist devices, are typically used with a heart still in place to help the chambers circulate blood. With D'Zhana's heart removed, doctors at Holtz Children's Hospital crafted substitute heart chambers using a fabric and connected these to the two pumps.

Although artificial hearts have been approved for adults, none has been federally approved for use in children. In general, there are fewer options for pediatric patients. That's because it's rarer for them to have these life-threatening conditions, so companies don't invest as much into technology that could help them, said Dr. Marco Ricci, director of pediatric cardiac surgery at the University of Miami.

He said this case demonstrates that doctors now have one more option.

"In the past, this situation could have been lethal," Ricci said.

And it nearly was. During the almost four months between her two transplants, D'Zhana wasn't able to breathe on her own half the time. She also had kidney and liver failure and gastrointestinal bleeding.

Taking a short stroll — when she felt up for it — required the help of four people, at least one of whom would steer the photocopier-sized machine that was the external part of the pumping devices.

When D'Zhana was stable enough for another operation, doctors did the second transplant on Oct. 29.

"I truly believe it's a miracle," said her mother, Twolla Anderson.
D'Zhana said now she's grateful for small things: She'll see her five siblings soon, and she can spend time outdoors.

"I'm glad I can walk without the machine," she said, her turquoise princess top covering most of the scars on her chest. After thanking the surgeons for helping her, D'Zhana began weeping.

Doctors say she'll be able to do most things that teens do, like attending school and going out with friends. She will be on lifelong medication to keep her body from rejecting the donated heart, and there's a 50-50 chance she'll need another transplant before she turns 30.

For now, though, D'Zhana is looking forward to celebrating another milestone. On Saturday, she turns 15 and plans to spend the day riding in a boat off Miami's coast.

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no life.

2008-12-01T23:42:00.002+11:00

this will be my 622 post on this blog.

not counting the two that i put up on lynndulge to direct them here,

the other 71 on my private blog,

the 1093 on nobodyzsweetheart,

and the i dont know how many on wordpress.

i wish i had a bath tub. i'll just lie in the bath tub in hot water till the water turns cold. i miss just lying in water.

xoxo
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fight club

2008-12-01T23:05:00.001+11:00

great show.
xoxo
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nothing.

2008-12-01T21:01:00.002+11:00

we have less and less things to talk about..

i dont know if its a good thing or a bad thing that we lead such separate lives right now..

i mean, why shouldnt i worry about us drifting apart?

maybe we're starting to appreciate each other less and less.

maybe..

xoxo
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making noodles out of scratch :)

2008-12-01T18:57:00.005+11:00

so, from the post before i mentioned i was gonna go make some noodles.

i had to start out with this sad little thing..
but i eventually managed to get to this..

and then this..

and finally this!

i now know how to make my own noodles and isaac wants me to cook for him now :S me scared!

xoxo
you know you love me

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the mix matchy day

2008-12-01T17:26:00.002+11:00

so i've been a boring person today ><

i woke up, i did the laundry, i cleared my room, i hung up the clothes outside to dry, vacuumed my room, played with the bunnies, collected half the clothes that are dry, folded them, vacuumed the house and spent alot of time online and am waiting for my clothes to dry outside.

meh.

boring day. i should have gone out to get my hair cut but i couldnt be bothered. sigh.

tomorrow: i get to go play with max (my german shepard who's in quarantine) and clear up zeke and my room and go to work so no online time tomorrow.

i wish i had something better to do..

oh wait. i'm supposed to study for my driving test.

and oh oh, i'm gonna go help make noodles out of flour :p

xoxo
you know you love me

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it bothers me.

2008-12-01T00:11:00.000+11:00

xoxo
you know you love me

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i'm afraid to press anything else

2008-11-30T22:02:00.007+11:00

after 'getting' shan's present, zeke and i went over to take a look at the display at myer

you know how every year they have different decorations at myer?

this year was all about santa really works - 'he' does have to go to school and such (which i thought was an adorable [and plausible] idea - come on! santa doesnt live forever and how would he be able to get presents to everyone in the world without some help? -lets just ignore the fact that rudolf doesnt even exist )

anyway, today yin and i went out for a little bit of shopping..

starting at melbourne central, stopping at a quaint little sushi place for lunch and then heading over to the basement..

then we went to supre and i bought NOTHING even though i partially fell in love with this maxi dress.
but it didnt look flattering (maybe because its a size too big and i've put on weight =.=" )

and i also tried on this top
but why state the obvious?

then we headed down to ze ligerie shop to buy lingerie and this is the pile of stuff i tried on (or tried to try on with my limited time frame)
i left the shop with 3 vavavoom bras :)

and then we headed to cotton on to try the gladiator sandals and i couldnt decide which one to get.

dont judge me. i forgot to paint the other leg because i got distracted and then forgot and you should get the point.
didnt end up getting either because i really couldnt decide.

random pictures from ages ago :)

zeke when we were at hanhdorf (chocolate shop)
my hot chocolate at choclatte (camberwell)
so pretty <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_QVhzh5i_tnE/STJzALcvp8I/AAAAAAAAGz4/B9ag6EMQUgc/s1600-h/Image021.jpg">my red headed devil
my blue haired sweetie

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two rings.

2008-11-30T21:25:00.003+11:00

i've put on weight.

plans?

-eat a little less
-exercise a little more
-walk more tram/train less

xoxo
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the last

2008-11-30T01:18:00.004+11:00

for our last ~~supper~~ dinner we ate at esposito

my entree: lightly cooked scallops + raviolli (but i dont think they called 'it' that) + pumpkinhis entree: quail
his main: some kind of fish
my main: duck
my man:
his dessert:his girl
my dessert: chocolate ice cream (very rich!) + cream + caramel
my satisfaction.

my kisshis love.
our memories.

xoxo
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i died a little inside

2008-11-29T23:58:00.004+11:00

so after having crying fits for the past few days..

today came.

and there were no tears..

i dont think i've really come to terms that he's gone yet.

i sort of did at work today..

i was serving this table some food and suddenly i started to wonder where i was gonna go after work.

and for a split second i was going to go to zeke (our) 's place

and i was "greeted" with an image of him sitting on the stairs right directly in front of the front door..

and then i realized that he was gone and i died a little more inside

xoxo
you know you love me

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everything

2008-11-29T01:06:00.001+11:00

Oohh I would take the stars out of the sky for you
Stop the rain from falling if you asked me to
I'd do anything for you, your wish is my command
I could move a mountain when your hand is in my hand

Words could not express how much you mean to me
There must be some other way to make you see
If it takes my heart and soul you know I'd pay the price
Everything that I possess I'd gladly sacrifice

Oh you to me are everything
The sweetest song that I could sing
Oh baby, oh baby
To you I guess I'm just a clown
Who picks you up each time you're down
Oh baby, oh baby
You give me just a taste of love
To build my hopes upon
You know you've got the power ~~girl~~ boy
To keep me holding on
So now you've got the best of me
C'mon and take the rest of me
Oh baby

Though you're close to me we seem so far apart
Maybe given time you'll have a change of heart
If it takes forever girl then I'm prepared to wait
The day you give your love to me won't be a day too late

Oh you to me are everything
The sweetest song that I can sing
Oh baby, oh baby
To you I guess I'm just a clown
Who picks you up each time you're down
Oh baby, oh baby
You give me just a taste of love
To build my hopes upon
You know you've got the power ~~girl~~ boy
To keep me holding on
So now you've got the best of me
C'mon and take the rest of me
Oh baby

Oh you to me are everything
The sweetest song that I could sing
Oh baby, oh baby
Oh you to me are everything
The sweetest song that I could sing
Oh baby, oh baby
Oh you to me are everything
The sweetest song that I could sing
Oh baby, oh baby
Oh you to me are everything
The sweetest song that I could sing
Oh baby, oh baby

xoxo
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i dont want you to leave..

2008-11-28T23:53:00.002+11:00

because it feels like my heart is breaking when i think about you walking through the gates alone..

xoxo
you know you love me

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ken~

2008-11-28T23:38:00.002+11:00

xoxo
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so yesterday:

2008-11-28T12:21:00.002+11:00

SO TODAY :
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GUESS WHAT WE FOUND?!

2008-11-27T23:10:00.005+11:00

you know how people talk about bicardi 151 like its the coolest alco around?

maybe because its freaking 75% alcohol

well, if its your 'best', its time you thought about black absinthe

just in case you cant read.. black absinthe is 85% alcohol and will probably kill you. (not really)

it might however, drive you insane..

and make you a little camwhorish

the suspense is killing us- we wanna know how it tastes like!!
interested in getting a bottle for yourself?

ask me, and maybe i'll get one to you ;)

obviously not for free :p

xoxo
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too weird

2008-11-25T00:03:00.003+11:00

sometimes i get really concerned about kids younger than i am believing in forever.

i feel like they're so sheltered and stuff and how can they say that they want forever with some guy and give that one guy everything.. their virginity.. their hearts.. how can they invest so much into a relationship just because the guy says forever?

and then i realized.. i believe in forever too.

who the hell am i to judge them?

xoxo
you know you love me

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stop me

2008-11-24T18:49:00.000+11:00

i'm infected it's like a disease
like poison, you touched me, my heartbeat
it's spreading so sweetly
what are you thinking.. when we're this close?
i count on the space that i keep
guards up in towers they're watching, they're waiting
don't hurt me
the walls that protect me, keep me inside
i hate it when we say goodbye
alone for the rest of the night ... without you

tonight, i am waiting for you
to call me when you're not supposed to
i've been trying to send you signs
the doors to me are hard to find
so stop me, stop me, this time...

you kiss me goodnight on the cheek
each time it gets closer to my lips
or am i imagining
the parking lot's empty
so kiss me again

i hate it when we say goodbye
alone for the rest of the night without you

tonight, i am waiting for you
to call me when you're not supposed to
i've been trying to send you signs
the doors to me are hard to find
so stop me, stop me this time..

xoxo
you know you love me

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you dont drive me anywhere but totally insane

2008-11-23T22:27:00.004+11:00

guess what?

zeke and i went to SEXPO!

but thats for today, yesterday zeke and i went to ikea and picked out a nice new table for his room and little odds and ends..

while he's studying for his last paper, i'm going to redecorate his room! such a good little project for me so that i wont keep him away from work *beams*

anyway, back to sexpo..

dont know what sexpo is?

"Sexpo is an Australian exhibition focusing on displaying all aspects of ~~health,~~ sexuality and adult lifestyle for all Australians.It is only open to patrons over the age of 18 (pfft, i didnt even get checked for ID and there were people running around that looked younger than 18. zeke not included), and is run by Club X. Sexpo is run in most major capital cities, including Perth, Sydney, Adelaide, Melbourne and Brisbane" -Wiki

(things in italics are my extra inputs)

anyway, it was kinda fun and there was a sex ride!!

no i didnt take pictures, sorry :(

i would say next year but it might be the last year it would be held in melbourne O_o

there were heaps of things going on

mostly people selling sex toys and kinky clothes ranging from T shirts with funky phrases to bondage-SM gear and then there were lingerie fashion shows, strip poker, peep shows, a meet porn stars thing and also performances (naked acrobatics, pole dancing, erotic dancing)

but the ONE thing that irked me was the painting section.

the painting section where a man, the only man in the world, paints portraits with his penis

ick!

(for big surface areas he uses his butt and for a bigger brush he uses his balls as well. ick!!)

anyway, i ended up buying a couple of things and going on the ride and getting disgusted by the penile painter.

*shudder*

oh! we went with Steven who played strip poker and had to strip down to his drawers. the two girls who were playing were butt naked 15 mins into the game.

and they wore really daggy underwear. ick!

all in all.. it was okay :)

i got to look at some Punani stuff go google it. its clothing attire and a friend, more of an associate of mine, models for them.

some of their stuff are really cute- i just didnt end up buying any of their stuff :S

xoxo
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hen da!

2008-11-19T22:12:00.003+11:00

the other day i was walking in melbourne central and i heard "... ne ne.." from two women

i paid no attention but later zeke told me that they were saying "ta de ne ne hen da"

direct translation?

her breasts are big

jebus.

xoxo
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rip - hairless 6.

2008-11-19T12:03:00.001+11:00

so, i think that cognitive psychology sucked ass.

and that we lost 6 grandchildren (honey gave birth and the babies all died)

and my pathology paper's today (so not ready)

and my mother's birthday's today

and i just feel all around stressed out to death and a half.

xoxo
you know you love me

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uhoh

2008-11-16T00:47:00.005+11:00

the next week is going to pass in a breeze.

with three papers next week (tuesday:cognitive psychology, wednesday:pathology, friday:biochemistry) a shopping spree in between and work..

and on friday after work, i'm going to bring isaac out for a movie before going back to his place to snuggle (and then bug him to study the next day)

time's bound to fly with that sort of schedule.

today at work, i got complimented a couple of times for organizing and running the night smoothly.

got heaps of tips too!

(too bad we had to split it 4 ways)

apparently i should be a real estate agent.

because i can smooth talk customers into buying all sorts of food (i guess it does help that the food is good)

sometimes i wonder if i am doing the right choice with what i am doing now.

pathology, psychology, biochemistry.

where will that take me?

a lab somewhere?

i love talking to people, communicating..

i'm good with people!

alot of customers have said that and i think so too.

one time, i had this little kid come in (they're regulars) and the little boy gave me a flower he picked up. (i completely melted) but then his younger sister wanted it so i gave the flower to his little sister.

can you say 'awwwwwhhh'?

how adorable is that?

anyway, i've been thinking of buying myself a nice new camera.

so many things i need to do and they all require money.

money money money!

sometimes, it really annoys me that i dont earn too much.

sigh, you may say that things would get better after the exams but i've got a to do list for after the exams too!

renew my card
get my australian passport
work and earn money so that i can

travel to perth
get a new tattoo
buy a new camera
get laser eye surgery (maybe next year)

get my drivers

get a car (mini cooper? buggy? something cute :p AS IF)

finish up isaac's christmas present
gather up the guts to tell my father that i want to move in with isaac next year

time is so short!

one more year and a bit then isaac has to pack up and leave.

i dont know if i will be able to pick up and follow him to the states..

if i cant, i dont know how our relationship would be then.

i cant do long distance relationships!

they suck!

i dont have the patience and i need the physical contact

cal me insecure if you will but so f-ing what?

its hard being away from someone you love.. and you never know when things might end.

you never know being apart might just invite other people into your life in that way.

i know i invited myself into isaac's life.

in my defence, the person he was with was a backstabbing bitch who didn't even love him. yes zeke, i think you were silly, okay, stupid, to get together with her in the first place.

before you think of casting stones, if you see love and life in black and white, you havent been through/know enough.

only when you see things in shades of grey, then cast the first stone.

because hey, life isnt just right and wrong.

and that sort of sucks because everything depends on the situation.

i think it was wrong for zeke and i to start out the way we did.. but i think that it would have happened eventually anyway.

meh.

rant rant.

xoxo
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boys boys boys.

2008-11-15T11:59:00.002+11:00

isaac has me addicted to tuna buns from bread top!

yummy ~

listening to: Boys boys boys - Lady Gaga.

trying to: study my damn cognitive psychology

xoxo
you know you love me

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done for

2008-11-15T02:01:00.003+11:00

exam periods are such a pain :(

i did a little post first exam shopping today with isaac.

i bought 3 tops.

2 tanks and 1 spag strap.

all for pretty good prices.

was gonna buy a new bikini from rusty as well but the fit was awful!

then we wanted to go to MB for some hot chocolate but it was full and ended up with me going back early.

meh.

hope everyone's having more fun than i am :)

xoxo
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i am so over exams..

2008-11-14T00:26:00.003+11:00

.. and i havent even bloody started.

ps. v, i think you're a hot insecure slut *smiles sweetly*

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raw

2008-11-10T23:18:00.001+11:00

good luck to everyone going through exams :)

xoxo
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the cut.

2008-11-10T22:58:00.004+11:00

a couple of days ago i got this call from a friend of mine at 12.40am asking for a favour.

i said i'd help him out even though it would be zeke doing the 'work'

(i'm sorry baby, i should have asked you if its okay first)

and then i realized, why should i?

you. piss. me. off.

what got me really pissed off was that this guy couldn't even call me when i was interested to go to his youth group after promising numerous times (in front of mutual friends) since the beginning of the year, couldnt even call me when a friend of ours, alison, came down for a week to visit. even when i called and messaged him while she was down, he didnt pick up is phone or reply any of the messages.

first of all, he doesnt talk to me unless he wants something or talk about girls/religion/relationships (i know that is alot to talk about but less than 5 times a year for a conversation is pretty little, no?)

second of all, you call me in the middle of the night, asking for a favour and then i find out that the reason why you're even calling me is because its a favour for your girlfriend.

what the fuck is this?

you. are. an. ass.

you preach your messages but it all doesnt mean shit.

you talk big about wanting to bring me to church but never get back to me about the timings and when they are going to happen (because they arent on every week).

okay, i'm not pissed. rather, i'm disappointed. disappointed in people like you.

you make promises you cant keep.

your hypocrisy sickens me.

its sad, really. that we used to be close once (even though you did frame me for loosing our homework when you had it the whole time) and now, we're just associates, barely even that.

life moves on.

and we make better friends as we grow up.

i know i have.

xoxo
you know you love me

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do you think love's enough to make a relationship work?

2008-11-10T02:29:00.004+11:00

so, do you?

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i like this part

2008-11-10T02:00:00.003+11:00

i dont understand why when women put sexy/skanky pictures of themselves on facebook, what everyone complements them on is their body and..

.. no one ever notices the very obvious lazy eye.

=.=

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the dress.

2008-11-07T23:25:00.003+11:00

so, the dress that i like, there's only ONE size 8 left. it wont be there when my discount card is valid. if i buy it now, i "waste" $40. WHAT DO I DO?

buy it now and 'waste' money or try to save money and possibly not have it at all?

rawr.

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i cant wait to get my hands on you

2008-11-07T00:45:00.003+11:00

ps. i swear it looks better with someone actually in it. sexy~!

and if you were reading the past post why i am gonna be getting 40% discount off.,. i have a discount card, valid for a one time use thing for about 20 items, on sale or not. :) how much better would the bargain be if it were on sale and then you get a further 40% off the discounted price?

anyone else wants to save money with me? :p

yummy!

xoxo
you know you love me

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ticked

2008-11-07T00:43:00.004+11:00

gets really annoyed when people who havent bothered to maintain their friendship with you calls you out of the blue and asks for a favor.

what. the. fuck.

its not a problem to do a favor for you but please, at least have the decency to maintain contact. and also, a thank you after would be good.

ass.

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non

2008-11-07T00:11:00.003+11:00

oh wow.. how incredibly bimbotic did i sound?

ps. get better soon jess.

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yes, yes, YES!

2008-11-06T19:25:00.002+11:00

*screams* i cant believe you bought that dress before i did!!

no, its not going to stop me, i'm STILL going to get it for 40% less than you paid for it!!

how do you feel about them apples?

xoxo
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the best sleep

2008-11-05T22:31:00.002+11:00

isaac h.!

i loved sleeping in your arms today

cant wait till the days that we can do it every night.

xoxo
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i think exam stress is making me emotional.

2008-11-05T01:47:00.003+11:00

if someone you loved were put under anesthesia and they were going to die..

you've been given 2 choices

1. to just continue the anesthesia so that they would live just that little bit longer

or

2. to slowly take them off the anesthesia so that you can say goodbye

i wouldnt know what to do.

to not say goodbye would kill me emotionally forever.

to say goodbye would do the same PLUS i wouldnt know what to say.

xoxo
you know you love me

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