peace :)

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guess who passed the citizenship test?

okay okay, i aced it the second time.

the first time? i got one of the 'mandatory' questions wrong and even though everything else was smack on the dot.. i failed.

meh.

whatever!

i aced the second one anyway :)

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after days of feeling like this..

i'm finally starting to feel a little more like this

about damn time too!~

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a last minute thing

tomorrow today i sit for my citizenship test.

soon after, i renounce my malaysian citizenship.

i'll go back to maylaysia (can i still say that?) in november/december - feb..

i'll buy heaps of fake lashes.. buy heaps of shoes.. meet up with awesome people like jess who have "forever legs" who make me feel like blubber with stumps.

bitch!

heh, you know i love you nor i wouldnt be looking for mini alcohol for you.

anyway, for a while i did put my blog on 'private' just because i was going through an emotional rough patch even though i didnt actually blog anything during that period.

but whatever it is, i'm back online :)

omigod since coming back from the whole gold coast and then to falls creek trip my skin has been a bitch and i've been breaking out :(

but that aside, in the past week, i discovered this
and i totally and utterly swear by it.

i realize it says 'signs of ageing' on the bottle/ tub(?) but it really makes my skin utterly smooth *pleased look*

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OMIGOD

what is happening to me? i'm liking pink things and.. and..

ahhh shit.


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stupid stupid

why didnt i buy those pretty pink fake lashes while they were there

there were there for ages but i was always so indecisive that now they're gone and will never be restocked :(

stupid stupid.

bleagh.

here's my word vomit for the day.

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still a biatch

turns out that the woman who knocked me over a couple of days ago was fleeing from a robbery..

she was making her getaway from the robbery she was committing.

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i'm alive and havent committed suicide yet.

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heartfelt

damnit.

i've been an emotional wreck.

i guess this evening's 'shove down' really was my breaking point.

so a couple of posts ago i mentioned that i was going through a hard time..

and i dont know if its still going to happen but i'm more comfortable talking about it.

its been going on for ages but it still hits just as hard.

whatever it is, dad's trying to fix wrongs..

not easy when there has been little itty (but significant) statements that just hurt other family members that has been building up.

some hurt take longer to heal than others if they even heal at all.

i'm not saying that its entirely his fault; i know we all play a little role in this falling apart.

i constantly tell zeke, 'we cant let our family in the future be like this', 'we must never spoil our kids like that'.

sometimes i'm scared that we'd fall apart (even more so when)/like how my family does.

i guess its almost like an unspoken thing. and because its unspoken, things build up.. or we just let things slide so much that eventually we just dont care as much in the end or that there's too much to deal with that we just dont want to bother.

life's a pain in the butt but if there's something i know, is that there's nothing like a good support system that lets you know that you'll get right back on your feet.

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on top of everything.

i've put on weight.

oh please just let it all be over and done with already.

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assaulted.

yes.

you read it right.

some mother f*cker knocked me down.

alright, so here's the deal.

i was walking in the food court with zeke and the path in front of me was pretty much clear. then suddenly, this fat short ish woman in her 30s (in an ugly blue jacket) on my left suddenly swerves in front of me and shoulders me so hard (yelling MOVE!) that i land on my ass.

anyway, i was in major shock (it was SO unprovoked!) and had to sit down for a while.

my butt hurts and my right elbow hurts where i had my operation.

probably from trying to break my fall.

anyway, we tried to go to the head office at melbourne central to get the video surveillance so that i can press assault charges but they were closed.

i guess i'm going to be busy tomorrow with university and with pressing charges for the first time in my life.

it should be a pretty open and close case with the video of her assaulting me and the witnesses and all.

wish me luck.






i feel frazzled.. and for some weird reason cried my eyes out.. i'm in a little bit of shock..





where do these type of people come from?

so obscene and disgustingly rude.


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ramble ramble on.

when i first got back i showed my mother my tattoo and she said it looked nice.

yesterday, she asked me if it were permanent.



do i joke that much that my mother doesnt even know i'm telling the truth?

or maybe my truths seem like lies and my lies seem like the truth.




weird.



should i go see wicked?

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i want another tattoo

three nights of work = more than$250

sweet.

on the other hand, i have one week to study for my citizenship test and i am NOT ready.

so NOT ready.

australian citizen.

omigod.

scares me.




anyway, guys, bear with me for now, i'm going through some sort of shitty something right now which is causing the rest of my life to seem to fall to pieces so if i dont really blog for the next couple of weeks.. try to understand.

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One Year

her gift to me

on our anniversary

happy one year hunny

click for full view for full oomph..

ZikZak Pte Ltd
Bringing you Pleasure; is My Pleasure.. XD~

stupid stupid

with all the things going on at home, i love being out.

apparently, i like being out so much that my subconscience decided to tell me i have class this morning when i didnt.

bodohsial.

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blah blah

being back at work feels a little weird, like my tongue is all tied up and i keep saying the wrong thing and ugh!..

sigh. work today. work tomorrow. work sunday and work monday.

i want gel nails. a new bag. a size 6 body.

at least i can get two out of the three.







funny how this tragedy can bring my mom and i closer.

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Gold Coast 2 - Dreamworld

after two days of exploring Surfer's Paradise and staying in our little apartment (shown below) we finally headed out for some serious theme park fun

Shortly after arriving, zeke and i ran to the giant drop (okay, okay, i had to be persuaded and even then i walked away from it and then suddenly turned around and didnt think about it and just boarded the mothafcker)

hey, come on. cut me some slack.

it IS the world's tallest and fastest freefall ride (imagine free falling 393 feet) at 135 km per hours with ~ 40 seconds wait time at the tip to contemplate and wonder when you're actually gonna die.

anyway, after that shaky ride (i swear, my knees wouldnt stay upright after that) zeke (being the thoughtful little thing he is) decided that we should go for an easy sweet ride after that.

what better than the log ride.

a pretty long waiting time which was spent taking pictures and camwhoring like the sad little asian tourists we were



fone would think that this ride is reasonably safe. IT IS NOT.

i swear to you.

isaac was holding my hand while we were going down and as our log hit the bottom, isaac (unknowingly) dragged my arm down and knocked it hard against the log and i swear i lost feeling in it for a good half hour.

i thought it was broken!

and i was kinda annoyed at him but zeke said sorry and i sulked around a little (girl ma, must sulk la!) and the pampered me a little and all was well again.

i know, i am such an evil girlfriend.

anyway, we then headed over to tigerland but managed to see some other cute things on the way

before we saw cute little cubs before watching the tiger show (which there are too many pictures for so if you want to see most of them go to facebook)













then we were suppose to go on the Tower of Terror (i went on it when i was 12) and for the whole day i was wanting to go on it and telling zeke that he has to give it a try and all that crap but we were hungry so we headed off to get some food and water into our roaring and growling bellies.

anyway, started to line up for Tower of Terror and the stupid rattling of the walls scared the bejebus out of it.

anyway, mid way of the wait i really needed to pee.

come boarding the ride.. i REALLY REALLY needed to pee.

and i was scared shitless so those two were DEFF not a good combination.

so after they fastened my seatbelts..

I FLIPPED OUT MAJORLY AND ASKED THEM TO STOP THE RIDE AND I JUMPED OUT AND RAN AWAY.

yes.

that was embarassing as hell.

after waiting half an hour and sitting next to a little kid who couldnt have been more than 12, i flipped out and ran off to take the lift down.

(with zeke running behind me even though i told him to stay)

okay. i didnt ran away. i was TOO scared to even run.

anyway, the MOST embarassing part was that i even had to wait for the elevators to come and by the time it did, the ride was over for everyone else who were gushing about it and this nice old man said, "its okay" or sumthing along those lines that sounded so much better than the groans and moans and dirty and more superior looks i got from everyone else.

anyway, we then headed off to walk around Dreamworld



and nearly got on Cyclone (but the line was too long - it WASNT because of me flipping out and needing to pee) but then headed off to WhiteWaterWorld for some wet fun.

ew, not that way you pervert!

until the wet post..

kisses~

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hit me

whoa.

for the first time in my entire life, i have a day off from school/uni/work.

and it was a morning to remember. that is, if you can even remember anything when you're asleep and not dreaming and i'mgoingwayofftrack.

but the point is, i spent the morning sleeping in to make up for yesterday's 8am lecture.

freaking eight in the morning is BLASPHEMOUS

blasphemous but whatever. i'm no longer enrolled in that subject.

its annoying that the university doesnt let me know that i cant do that subject (after last semester's stuff up) until after i've gone for two of its lectures.

fccckkkkkkkkkk!

so now the double major shall be pathology + psychology.

ahh. pray for me that i dont go completely and utterly psychotic.

anyway, i was actually planning on doing a lazy day at home but now that i've had to change microbes:infection and responses for cognitive psychology, i've gotta head out for a dman 4pm lecture.

two friggin hours of sitting down and listening to some old drone croak about rubbish and a half.

meh.

oh yes, please hit me with a hammer on my head.

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gold coast - discoveries - Pt 1 redone.

one thing about having trips one right after the other is that i dont have time to blog about them and the first one gets overwhelmed by the second and it just seems like the first one is too far into the past to even bother about but I MUST BLOG ABOUT GOLD COAST!

anyway, as mentioned before, on the first day at Gold Coast, zeke and i basically just strolled around and tried to discover Gold Coast as much as we could.

but of course, first things first.

get from the airport to the backpackers hotel.

since we were on a holiday with a budget, we opted for taking a bus from there to 'Backpackers in Paradise'.


on the bus, there was this local guy sitting in front of us so i do what i do best..

(well, one of the things i do best anyway..)

i chat the poor guy to death and a half drilling him about the 'must see places' and where we could get discounted tickets for the theme parks and all that sort the whole way the bus driver was driving and trust me, it was a long way to drive.

anyway, we finally arrived at Backpackers in Paradise and were gonna check in but THEY MESSED UP OUR ROOM.

we got two single beds instead of getting our much wanted double bed apartment.

sigh.

but alls good i guess because we managed to sort it out and we only had to stay at the single bedded apartment for two nights before we were allowed to swap over.

anyway, what would we have expected?

we opted for a budget holiday and choose a budget place to stay which was right smack in the middle of Surfers Paradise.


and Surfers Paradise is deff not only paradise for Surfers.

after checking in and dumping our stuff in the apartment, we headed out for some yummy things to eat (i dont remember what we ate already) and walked about a little bit.

we headed to the beach a little bit and the sand was so FINE and lovely and the water was cool and sigh..

i want to be back on holidays again.

anyway, after splashing about a little bit and lying in the sun like the two beach bums we pretend to be, we got sucked into buying two tickets to the 'Wicked Club Crawl' for Wednesday night.

We headed back to the apartment and fell right asleep.

a much deserved break, i think especially after a night flight - or rather an ungodly hour-ed flight -

we woke up just in time for dinner and headed off to the central part of Surfers Paradise and had 'Seafood Mania' for dinner.

i swear, anyone who goes there has to eat at Seafood Mania.

the Scallops were yummy.. i cant remember which scallop dish i had already but its the white buttery one and not the chilli one.

omigod. ITWASSOGOODITHOUGHTTHATIHADANORGASM.

zeke agrees with me that the food was yummy-licious and thats why we went back another four times the whole time we were there but thats another story all together.

After dinner, a nice couple-y stroll took place - hey, its our holiday and we can be romantic and mushy if we wanted to - along 'downtown SP' and the beach.

The next day was pretty much the same.

We explored SP..



..discovered F.'s Tattoo parlour and decided (sort of) that it was there that we would get our tattoo.. eventually.

anyway, we ended up buying tickets for the themeparks in 'Central Shopping Centre' at an information desk.

you used to be able to bargain the prices but now, its all sort of a 'not negotiable at all' zone.

we got tickets for Dreamworld+WhiteWaterWorld and the Fun Pass.

the Fun Pass is basically a one day access for all WB Movie World, Seaworld and Wet n Wild Waterworld over a 5 day span and costs only ~$150.

a little bit of a steal when each ticket for the parts cost about ~$60 to ~$70 each.

it being rainy and stuff, we couldnt really do that much so we ended up going to Infinity

Infinity is basically some kind of walk through maze thing that uses alot of effects to make it seem really futuristics - read: lots of mirrors and lights and stuff which makes it hard for you to find the door out to the next room which contains even MORE lights and mirrors -all the 'unique' special effects are kinda cool to make it seem a little unreal. The one thing that sort of freaked me out is this 'thing' that closes up on you which leads to the next room.

i think it works with some kind of pressure pad thing. when you step on it, the 'exit' closes up on you. which is really freaky when you see the exit and suddenly the exit is squishing you into the soft cushions of the wall.

eep! they also had dangling furry things that reminded me alot of hairy spider legs and it being dark and all. ugh.

yuck!

anyway, after that, we walked along the docks a little








my apparent zen tree

got tired after that and headed back to the apartment for some sleepy time before waking up and heading out for the Wicked thing.

i loved how they made everyone wear stickers 'somewhere noticeable' so that people wont hit on someone attached and stuff like that.

they had red stickers for the 'unavailables'. orange stickers for the 'hard to gets'. green stickers for the 'single and availables' and the blue stickers -my personal favorite- for 'horny'.

throughout the night i kept seeing men with heaps of blue stickers plastered over their shirts and .. it was sort of amusing.

free drinks from the clubs we went to and free entry can only keep zeke and i entertained for so long before we got bored and left..

for dinner at SEAFOOD MANIA again before heading back to an early night's rest.

whatever for, you ask.

easy.

dreamworld awaited us the next day.

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