cocktail night - 21st August

cocktail night~
me and cn in isaac's messy room (my fault entirely)
,me in my sexxxy red heels that hurt like a -lets not even go there.
cn looking mighty finee~
acting bimbotic

cn and idoing the foot pop~
cn and my man.


at the monkey bar-

zeke and i
hey sexy lady!
cn and eileen

where we all fight for attention.cn
sexxxyyyy
cn and slutty fly
zeke, me, cn, sho kai (?)

fly, cn and i~cn and i
yes, cn got a weird shot of me.
my man and i <3
bimbotic alcoholic
isaac doing what he does best. stealing food and putting it into champagne flutes
me taking credit for zeke's work
cn taking credit for zekes work
drunk (pfft-as if!)

this doesnt quite have enough alcohol in it..me and danzhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
danzhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa and cn
cn, me and danzhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
zeke and i

dittocn and i getting a little hiiiiiigggghhhh
ditto
why settle for one drink when i can have TWO
cn the alcoholic

three drinks for three alcoholicsi look so bimbotic hereeeee!! (not to mention zeke looks a little.. odd :p)
alcoholic ladies
trying to be sexxxy and failing desperately. i just look like an animal caught in the headlights
cn, zeke, valerie and i

sexxxy back~yang/yong (?) and zeke bonding over army talk
highhhhh ladies
cn
me - with a chicken wing looking arm.

mehhhhh.. i've had a long day so... rawr

ps.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KALUS, ADELINE AND CHAPMAN!!!!

kalus,

i miss you heaps laaa :( come here fast fast so that i can make you eat and hopefully get a little fatter!!

adeline,

happy birthday :p when are we gonna celebrate?

chapman,

sorry cant make it for your birthday tonight.. still recovering from cocktail night and am sick as hell.

i owe you a presenttttt!!!

rawr.

ladies and gentlemen.. goodnight :)

xoxo
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amore

this week has been a little different :)

i've been waking up earlier than the 10 mins i normally leave to my self to get ready

from 10 mins to an hour

i didnt use to understand why people would want to preen and make tea(?!) and eat breakfast and all those kind of things but now i do.

i wake up, actually bother to make the bed, eat my breakfast, have time to surf the net a little bit, make tea (yes, that sexxxy strawberry and champagne tea) and actually take my time to dress up in the bummy clothes i love so much (read: jeans and a shirt that doesnt smell bad)



anywayyyyy, i've got this weird growth thing on my eye that looks like butt an a half and i've been sick :(






i suggest people who are related to isaac/below 18/would be severely mentally damaged over over-sharing to stop reading here




due to the implanon i got ages ago, i've been having irregular bleeding.

you'd think that irregular bleeding means that i'd get my full stop more often than the once a month (as its suppose to be)

but noo0o0oooo.

i've been bleeding for the past MONTH.

god granted its not heavy like a normal full stop but its still very very annoying.

and because of the constant blood loss.. my immunity has been down thus becoming the buffet table for viruses and bacterias and all that.

meh.

so i've made a doctors appointment and have decided to take it out.

i should have known there was a catch when its only $30 for 3 years (okay, its over $200 but i've got medicare so its THAT much cheaper)

sigh.

so as an alternative, i'm thinking of going on 'the pill' now.

at least i'll get bigger boobs and get to control the full stop better.

it sucks having the full stop when you wanna jump about in the sun and swim and go to the beach and all that.

i mean, its okay for me coz i think tampons are heaven sent compared to the *shudder* pads taht some girls use, but still. not having to worry about anything at all (read: is the tamp string hanging out?) would be utterly heavenly.




okay its safe to read again now!!

anyway, tomorrow is our 13th monthsary.. so.. HAPPY MONTHSARY!

and we've got the cocktail night thing to attend to so (maybe) pictures later on :)

xoxo
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try me out

so today was basically going to camberwell for the market in the morning and then heading back to zeke's to sleep (damnit i'm still sick and it doesnt look like i'm gonna get better anytime soon =( ) right up till i had to go to work.

at work we had the "amazing rasa race".

the competitors, cn, alice and i.

the challenge?

setting up the table.

yes i can just see you all doing this =.="

but hey, whatever :)

we had fun even though i lost.

round two next week~

xoxo
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what's the craziest thing you've done lately?

its been ages since i really last just 'bleagh-ed' about my day

but i think its been totally and utterly uneventful.

until today.

we (mum, kristy, auntie melon, jean, adeline, adeline's auntie - sorry, i forgot her name, isaac and i) headed up to Sassafras, Dandenong for some yummy-licious scones.

up there i found (or rather, was introduced) to this quaint little tea shop that stocks this completely awesome strawberry and champagne tea (which i have been drinking all day and that zeke says we have to bring his mother to when she comes down).

and then bought this really nice antique perfume bottle (or rather, had it bought for me)

zeke bought me the antique perfume bottle.

i know i know, what's so great about that old piece of glassy bottle?

maybe nothing to other people but to me.. its just one of those childhood things that you know you've always wanted.. and lucky me.. i got it!!

awesome!!

thank you teddy bear :)

xoxo
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a tattoo addiction

for a girl who has a dream, i'm pretty dark.

i guess i'm going ( to try to ) to find a picture that illustrates that.

tough luck.

i know i mentioned this a month or two before saying that i missed see ann and james.

JLS.

it finally dawned unto me that even if we were all chucked into the same room, we'd reminisce about the good times we had but wouldnt really 'get back together'.

we all have our own lives now.

then, only see ann was the only one dating and even then, amos was/is overseas so our friendship wasnt really hindered because there wasnt the boyfriend/girlfriend/significant other time priority.

but now that all of us are dating?

we've really drifted..

but i'm really thinking about getting part of the tattoo james drew on my back last year somewhere on me.

perhaps the broken heart even though mine isnt in the normal ways that a heart would be broken.

its broken for all the friendships i've lost.. or how much we've all drifted because of our very seperated lives..

but mostly because those people played this ginormous role in helping me get my life back in order when i was starting on my path of destruction.

on a more apparently serious topic,

tattooing is an addiction.

its not funny at all.

i've got tattoo dates set up with jess babe, ashley, see ann, alice, and i dont even remember who else.

the worst part? i have more designs in my head than the names i have up there.

jesus.

xoxo
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i have a dream

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream

xoxo
you know you love me

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word vomit

so we watched pineapple express

funny how i seem to watch alot of shows involving weed.

xoxo
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peace :)

xoxo
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guess who passed the citizenship test?

okay okay, i aced it the second time.

the first time? i got one of the 'mandatory' questions wrong and even though everything else was smack on the dot.. i failed.

meh.

whatever!

i aced the second one anyway :)

xoxo
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after days of feeling like this..

i'm finally starting to feel a little more like this

about damn time too!~

xoxo
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a last minute thing

tomorrow today i sit for my citizenship test.

soon after, i renounce my malaysian citizenship.

i'll go back to maylaysia (can i still say that?) in november/december - feb..

i'll buy heaps of fake lashes.. buy heaps of shoes.. meet up with awesome people like jess who have "forever legs" who make me feel like blubber with stumps.

bitch!

heh, you know i love you nor i wouldnt be looking for mini alcohol for you.

anyway, for a while i did put my blog on 'private' just because i was going through an emotional rough patch even though i didnt actually blog anything during that period.

but whatever it is, i'm back online :)

omigod since coming back from the whole gold coast and then to falls creek trip my skin has been a bitch and i've been breaking out :(

but that aside, in the past week, i discovered this
and i totally and utterly swear by it.

i realize it says 'signs of ageing' on the bottle/ tub(?) but it really makes my skin utterly smooth *pleased look*

xoxo
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OMIGOD

what is happening to me? i'm liking pink things and.. and..

ahhh shit.


xoxo
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stupid stupid

why didnt i buy those pretty pink fake lashes while they were there

there were there for ages but i was always so indecisive that now they're gone and will never be restocked :(

stupid stupid.

bleagh.

here's my word vomit for the day.

xoxo
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still a biatch

turns out that the woman who knocked me over a couple of days ago was fleeing from a robbery..

she was making her getaway from the robbery she was committing.

xoxo
you know you love me

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i'm alive and havent committed suicide yet.

xoxo
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heartfelt

damnit.

i've been an emotional wreck.

i guess this evening's 'shove down' really was my breaking point.

so a couple of posts ago i mentioned that i was going through a hard time..

and i dont know if its still going to happen but i'm more comfortable talking about it.

its been going on for ages but it still hits just as hard.

whatever it is, dad's trying to fix wrongs..

not easy when there has been little itty (but significant) statements that just hurt other family members that has been building up.

some hurt take longer to heal than others if they even heal at all.

i'm not saying that its entirely his fault; i know we all play a little role in this falling apart.

i constantly tell zeke, 'we cant let our family in the future be like this', 'we must never spoil our kids like that'.

sometimes i'm scared that we'd fall apart (even more so when)/like how my family does.

i guess its almost like an unspoken thing. and because its unspoken, things build up.. or we just let things slide so much that eventually we just dont care as much in the end or that there's too much to deal with that we just dont want to bother.

life's a pain in the butt but if there's something i know, is that there's nothing like a good support system that lets you know that you'll get right back on your feet.

xoxo
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on top of everything.

i've put on weight.

oh please just let it all be over and done with already.

xoxo
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assaulted.

yes.

you read it right.

some mother f*cker knocked me down.

alright, so here's the deal.

i was walking in the food court with zeke and the path in front of me was pretty much clear. then suddenly, this fat short ish woman in her 30s (in an ugly blue jacket) on my left suddenly swerves in front of me and shoulders me so hard (yelling MOVE!) that i land on my ass.

anyway, i was in major shock (it was SO unprovoked!) and had to sit down for a while.

my butt hurts and my right elbow hurts where i had my operation.

probably from trying to break my fall.

anyway, we tried to go to the head office at melbourne central to get the video surveillance so that i can press assault charges but they were closed.

i guess i'm going to be busy tomorrow with university and with pressing charges for the first time in my life.

it should be a pretty open and close case with the video of her assaulting me and the witnesses and all.

wish me luck.






i feel frazzled.. and for some weird reason cried my eyes out.. i'm in a little bit of shock..





where do these type of people come from?

so obscene and disgustingly rude.


xoxo
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ramble ramble on.

when i first got back i showed my mother my tattoo and she said it looked nice.

yesterday, she asked me if it were permanent.



do i joke that much that my mother doesnt even know i'm telling the truth?

or maybe my truths seem like lies and my lies seem like the truth.




weird.



should i go see wicked?

xoxo
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i want another tattoo

three nights of work = more than$250

sweet.

on the other hand, i have one week to study for my citizenship test and i am NOT ready.

so NOT ready.

australian citizen.

omigod.

scares me.




anyway, guys, bear with me for now, i'm going through some sort of shitty something right now which is causing the rest of my life to seem to fall to pieces so if i dont really blog for the next couple of weeks.. try to understand.

xoxo
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One Year

her gift to me

on our anniversary

happy one year hunny

click for full view for full oomph..

ZikZak Pte Ltd
Bringing you Pleasure; is My Pleasure.. XD~

stupid stupid

with all the things going on at home, i love being out.

apparently, i like being out so much that my subconscience decided to tell me i have class this morning when i didnt.

bodohsial.

xoxo
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