one thing.

and then buffy pooped on his head.



DRAMA!!







i'm retarded!!



( as if we didnt already know )




and then i try to kiss myself..



.. and again..



.. and then isaac joined in..





but then i decided..



..again..



sigh.. you get the point, no.









xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

take that brick out of your ass.

20th September

i dont really remember much of Thursday but i know i slept like the utter pig that i am right up until when isaac called me. but anyway.. he came over later on in the afternoon and we fell asleep in my room (its as if we spend the day sleeping) before heading out to watch...STARDUST.


isaac was sweet and wanted to stay with me right up till midnight to be the first to wish me but there werent any trains going back to the city after midnight from the god forbidden place whihc i stay.. my place back to the city so he ended up getting bullied to head home.

he was still the first to wish me anyway by calling me ten minutes before..

21st September

=) thank you, mine. i love you.. happy two months..

and we were talking and whispering sweet nothings until my sister barged in with a really loud 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY' and my birthday present ; thank you yin.. - for staying up just to wish me at midnight even if you were a few seconds late because you needed to use the toilet :p

anyway, got off the phone with zik and was suppose to watch a movie with yin but she ended up going to bed while i stayed in mine watching useless movies that i had right up till about 4am before knocking out.

woke up at about 11ish (i think) only to fall back asleep to wake up again sometime at 1.

i went online and got bullied to wear a dress by see ann so i took a really, really, REALLY awesome shower and tried on dress.. after dress.. after dress.

yes, i own alot of dresses but i ended up wearing cn's dress anyway :p

bummed around the house with my sister before mum came home with my 'brunch' at 4.30.

*

out to camberwell for dinner with my family (and isaac) at Sofia's at about 6.30 and then had dinner with Carolyn, James, Ash, MJ, Kalus, Victor and Isaac at Sofia's .

thanks for the present guys :D

i swear i'll do my thank you birthday thing soon.. maybe tomorrow or monday, promise.

then Kalus, Victor and Isaac headed back with me to my place coz Victor and Kalus helped my mother and sister with some computer problems before we went to the city






(i stayed over at UC)

after changing into sleepwear, zik and i went to tempt Ashley with Indo mee.

watched 'Idiocracy' (?) with zik before turning in at about 4ish.

22nd September

lazed around at Zik's and watched 'Zodiac' before i headed home for dinner, and he, for Ash's dinner thing (coz ash's father came down) with the UCians.

i got home to oysters and make-your-own-sushi. Richie and Anisha came over for dinner and we stuffed ourselves silly. not to mention tried to make banana cake - i didnt have anything to do with the baking, i swear - which didnt really turn out well.

anyway, we bitched and bitched and .. OMIGOD.

gossip gossip gossip!

i'd say it here but..

it might just be about you

*

anyway, my moronic idiot of a brother decided to trip over the computer wire and my mother is on permanent PMS so i've kinda lost my mood.

i swear, what the hell is that womans problem?

fuck

dont do this. dont do that.

i have an idea..

dont ask me to help out with the dishes, oh wait, i volunteered because Yin wasnt around, and then NAG me because i did the god damn dishes and someone else USED plates while i wasnt in kitchen proximity.

ugh.

i really really really hate her.

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

give it to me baby (uhhuh)

Message: Haha !! because you opened this you will get kissed on the lips Friday night by the person u like . =] and tomorrow will be the best day of ur life so ..DO NOT BREAK THiS CHAiN!!!!iF YOU BREAK THE CHAiN U Will HAVERElATiONSHiP PROBlEMS for THE NEXT 10 YEARS !! REPOST THiS AS : we kissed .. sorry..


hun, it IS friday, and its my damn birthday so isaac had better kiss me on the lips or i might will throw a hissy fit so big that you will think that the tsunami was just a little glitch.

relationshop problems till i'm 29?

lets just see if that'll happen, shall we?

-

A blonde calls her boyfriend and says, "Please come over here and help
me. I have a killer jigsaw puzzle, and I can't figure out how to get started."

Her boyfriend asks, "What is it supposed to be when it's finished?"

The blonde says, "According to the picture on the box, it's a rooster."

Her boyfriend decides to go over and help with the puzzle.

She lets him in and shows him where she has the puzzle spread all over the table.

He studies the pieces for a moment, then looks at the box, then turns to her and says,

"First of all, no matter what we do, we're not going to be able to assemble these pieces into anything resembling a rooster".

He takes her hand and says, "Second, I want you to relax. Let's have a nice cup of tea, and then he said with a deep sigh

"Let's put all the Corn Flakes back in the box".

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

events events events

happy birthday M!!

happy birthday Henry!!

happy two months, mine!!

now lets see if today wud turn out to be a good day :p

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

perfect for you

i find it amusing how i can give love advice.

and that people actually take it.

even before this, all of this, the people i matchmake or advice have looong relationships.

hell, only one couple has broken up and that was after 2.5 years.

maybe if i dont get my degree, i could be a matchmaker.

-

why do people not see the things that are in front of them.

they know it, deep down.

they think of it..

but they just need someone to say it out loud sometimes.

i'm glad i helped :)

-

[How's Life?]
:: its life.

[Who was the last person who sent you sms?]
:: zik

[Are you good in your studies?]
:: i wish.

[Can you speak English?]
:: what the fuck kinda question is this? if i can read english.. i can speak english

[Who was the last who said "I Love You"?]
:: to me? or i to them?

[Who is the most annoying person you know?]
:: i have a short fuse.. but no one i know is really taht annoying.

[What time is it now?]
:: 2am

[What song are you listening to now?]
:: not listening to anything

[How many friends do you have on
Myspace & Friendster?]
:: i really have no idea

[Who are you chatting with?]
:: bryan.

[Are you in trouble?]
:: no

[Have you been heart broken before?]
:: never let myself fall in love - wouldnt have had a heart to break.

[Missing Someone?]
:: uhhuh

[What day is today?]
:: thursday morning

[Any birthday's coming up? Who?]
:: mine. tomorrow.

[Bored?]
:: yes

[Last Channel you watched on TV?]
:: havent watched tv since.. O_o

[What time did you sleep last night?]
:: i am still not asleep

[Do kids love you?]
:: icky things. keep them away from me!

[Do you make people laugh?]
:: guess so

[Do you give away your secret to anyone?]
:: icanttellanyone.blogspot.com and .. my diary. whatever piece of paper it might be :)

[Ever Smoked?]
:: yes

[Ever Drinked?]
:: yeah

[Ever got drunk?]
:: yeap..

[Are you Caring, Loving and Tender?]
:: none of the above.

[Are you bored of doing this?]
:: yea

[What's your fantasy?]
:: no one knows this one :)

[Are u in danger right now?]
:: yes. i might fall asleep and knock myself out cold on the keyboard and die

[Are u angry at someone?]
:: not really..

[What do u really want to do now?]
:: sleep

[What brand of clothes do u like?]
:: nothing specific

[What brand of rubber shoes do you like?]
:: anything's fine.. just not.. god forbid, crocs.

[Do you believe in soulmates?]
:: whatas with all these quiz things asking about soulmates?

[Who is the stupid-est?]
:: ni am i am!

[Who Cried?]
:: eh?

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

o n e

ever wondered how it would be if things were different?

ever wondered how things would be if you hadnt had done that something?

ever wondered how it would be if it werent like this?

i have.

-

dont ever set your favourite song as your alarm.. coz you'll grow to hate it (unless you're one of those psycotic morons who are early risers)

-

gossip girl seems a little 'blah' but i'm gonna keep watching the series anyway.

-

i've done it.

now i just dont know how to give it to you.

-

omigoddddddddddd..!!

haboko (no, thats not his real name) might just call me on my birthday :D

ugh, i miss that arse!

i'm yawning my head of but ...

i havent seen him online for AGES.

=)

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

lets skip two and make it one.

i now have a new series to watch.

granted, my favourite, heroes's season two stars on monday.



but now, guess what i have 'discovered'?



gossip girl, the book 'series' has been made into an actual tv series.



fantastic.

you guys should know me,

i like my gossip..

and .. ever wondered where i stole 'you know you love me' from?

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

t h r e e

spent the day at camberwell with isaac - we watched no reservations



but before all that..

reeeewiiinnndddddddd

i forgot to do the dishes last night so mum was a complete utter pain by waking me up at 7.00am (or was it earlier?)

normally, i wouldnt really mind (oh, who am i kidding, i WOULD mind but just wouldnt make as big of a bitch of it as i did today) but because i COULDNT sleep and then kept waking up coz of nightmares (what the fuck is up with the nightmare attack? i need a dream catcher.. :( ) i naturally, threw a little bit of a fuss. but i kinda fell back asleep - yes, i was THAT tired.

anyway, then a god damn call woke me up - for my sister - and i was jolted awake.

meh.

so much for sleeping well during the holidays.

the holidays havent been giving me good sleep!

*snarls*

then zik called and scolded me for not calling him when i woke up - but since i had no credit on my mobile and yin was on the phone..

anyway.. we ended up meeting at about 2.0oish..

.. walked down the the rivoli cinemas, purchased our ticket and got to sit anywhere our little hearts desired.

( obviously right smack in the centre )

but the bottom line is..

i like that show :)

( yes, i am well aware that its been out for donkey years.. )

after that, we walked around looking for a restaurant to eat but settle in hungry jacks where a god damn pigeon nearly shat on me.

fucker.

took the wrong train from camberwell.. took the train back to camberwell before catching the RIGHT train back home.

came home to spoil buffy, have dinner, spoil buffy some more before he left to go home.

uneventful day..

.. but i'm not complaning =)

three days till my birthday and i'm turning the big one-nine.



yes, i am 'not even a century yet' (-zik) but i feel..

its so.. 'ngeagh'

know what i mean?

its just another day.

its not that 'whoaa' like my 18th

(the only 'whoaaa' thing about it was that i made out with 'jl' and even then, whatever 'whoaa' factor i ever had about him kinda disintegrated - thank god.)

-

i havent really been talking about anything substancial recently, not that i ever did, but thats not the point.

the point is..

*snores*

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

empat.

hmm.. waitressing at a malaysian restaurant where the waitresses wears the singaporean airlines stewardess costume.

interesting.

i start this sunday.



xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

f o u r

1. the reason you are where you are rite now?
- because its the only place where i can acess the internet where its comfortable - living room

2. the reason you wake up in the morning?
- i just did. because of BUFFY!

3. the reason you love your favourite song?
- i dont think i have a favourite song..

4. the reason of the way you're feeling today?
- i feel.. irritated with my arm. thats IS what you get after someone jams a 4cm plastic rod up your arm and when you've had an injection on the other. so now both my arms are basically.. worthless.

5. the reason when you fall in love with someone?
- i dont know why people fall in love. read my past posts and i would tell you that love can go to hell and that we should all just stay away from love and heartache but.. i cant say that now. i am in love and its one of the most sataisfying, most beautiful things that can ever happen to anyone.

6. the reason you cry?
- hahaha.. i cry for alot of reasons. frustration.. annoyance.. depression.. when i'm really scared.

7. the reason you went out on saturday nite?
- i came home on saturday night :p

8. the reason you laugh out loud?
- err.. coz its FUNNY.

9. the reason you wake up late on the weekend?
- because i can

10. the reason you read a magazine?
- bored. interesting. especially those sealed sections.. :p

11. the reason you watch television?
- addicted

12. the reason you yell all the time?
- i don't.

13. the reason you hate someone so much?
- i don't hate anyone.

14. the reason you throw stuff from your closet?
- i throw stuff from my closet to the floor all the time.. looking for what to wear. :p

15. the reason you feel weak or strong?
- weak when i am helpless.. strong when.. i dont feel strong

16. the reason you gossip?
- i like to know what people are up to.

17. the reasons you call someone, late at nite?
- zik and i talk everynight.. but talking about other people.. i dont unless its an emergency

18. the reason you go to grocery store?
- to buy groceries la.

**

1. Name one person who made you smile yesterday?
aside from the obvious one.. yin did.

2. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
sleeping

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
same thing i am doing now.

4. What is something that happened to you in 1994?
err.. i was.. 6 O_o i dont KNOW.

5. What is the last thing you said aloud?
"yin..! get the fuck off my hip!"

6. How many different things did you drink today?
cola-the homebrand variety, water, lemonade

7. What color is your hairbrush?
the ibrush is white and my other one is black with a bit of blue.

8. What was the last thing you bought?
tampons. hahahaha

9. What was the last gift you received for your birthday?
err.. this years or last? coz the last thin i got was that thng from my mother which you guys will see soon enough after my birthday.

10. What color is your front door?
... beige-ish.. i think....

11. Where do you keep your change?
in my 'nightmare before chirstmas' coin purse

12. What was the weather like today?
sunny, windy, cold.

13. What is the best ice cream flavor?
old fashion butter peacan from baskin robbins or cookie and cream from bulla. that whole tub thing. i just dont realaly like chocolate or strawberry ice cream. not that i hate it.. i avoid them.

14. What is something you are excited about?
i should be excited about my birthday. but i am not. i am kinda excited about january.. but thats if i get enough money to buy a plane ticket.

15. When was the last rainbow you saw?
i havent seen a rainbow in ages. but i wanna see one..

16. What size shoe do you wear?
dont laugh. i have tiny feet. i can wear a size 5-7 at vincci.

17. Do you have a sister?
yes. little prick. but i love her anyway.

18. Are you very random?
beyond words.

19. Do you want to cut your hair?
i wanna grow it out and cut it. i hate the bloody blunt cut that i got in july. i miss my long locks. the long black locks. now i have.. mess.

20. Are you over the age of 25?
hahhaa. nope. not even 19!

21. Do you talk a lot?
depends on my mood.

22. Do you watch The O.C.?
nope. never did.. never will

23. Does your screen name have an "x" in it?
No.

24. Do you know anyone named Steven?
yea.. if thats how you spell it.

25. Do you make up your own words?
not really..

26. Are you ticklish?
shhh :p oh DAMNIT!

27. Are you typically a jealous person?
not really. or maybe i am.. just that i hide it well

28. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter "B":
beatrice

29. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter "J":
james

30. Who's the 1st person on your received calls list?
isaac.

31. What did the last text message you received say?
"muaks~ i'll be hanging around mrs fields and krispy creme there la"

32. Do you chew on your straws?
yea. and i know its kinda eww.

33. Do you have curly hair?
its not curly. its wavy. but not really. it sure as hell isnt straight. motherfucker. its just.. frizzy. its a bitch

34. What is the next concert you're going to?
i havent been to a concert.. dont plan on going to one atm.

35. Who is the worst person in your life?
we all make mistakes.. there arent any bads in my book.

36. How many times have you cursed today?
heh. i dont count

37. What is something you say a lot?
i love you. but thats only recently

38. What is the last thing you ate?
some duck.

39. Have you seen the movie "Donnie Darko"?
whats that

40. Do you have work tomorrow?
nope. starting on sunday next week.

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

home blues.

i hate staying at home.

coz the second i wake up..

she nags.

and nags.

and nags.

yea, you get annoyed; but why take it out on me?

its coz i am hardly ever at home, is it?

its such a vicious cycle.

and vicious it will stay.

-

but this morning i got the most interesting surprise..

i woke up to licking.

yes, licking.

on. my. nose.

buffy hopped up onto bed with me and decided to lick me good morning.

- insert 'awwwwhhh' here -

then i got out of bed only to be greeted by ..

well, shit.

at least she pooped and peed on one spot..

..why did it have to be my blanket that had fallen off?

ugh..

anyway, shit aside..

my mother decided to choose that second to throw stuff at my room door.

congratulations, mum.

i fell off the bed. and buffy with me.

at least it wasnt on poop

and then i spent my first half hour of my morning doing my laundry and clearing up poop and scolding buffy who has taken a liking to following me everywhere.

even last night, she followed me to bed.

and i fell asleep (the first time anyway) cuddling her..

before i decided to lock her in her cage an hour later .

meh.

i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me coz recently..

sleep has been a shit.

i keep waking up coz of nightmares.

trust me, its not nice to be 'raped' four times in a night and waking up in tears.

rapes aside..

i cleared stuff, did the laundry, and got online

and mum nagged.. and nagged.. and nagged.

and is still nagging half an hour later

(doesnt it ever get old?)

so..

i'm gonna go out before i lose my head and my sanity.

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

and so the 4 begins.

1. What’s bothering you right now?
nothing much.. just.. how to earn enough money for.. something.

2. Describe your:

wallet
black. plastic-ish. heart on the front in dull pink with a devil lady within it.

wallpaper on pc
a drawing of my name -zik

background on cellphone
emo girl with headphones with tears streaming down her face

jewellery worn daily
the necklace zik got for me - a heart with my name as part of it on a platinum chain.

eyes
dark brown. but looks shit with hazel coloured contacts, pretty nice in the green :p

life
is =)

3. What are you / do you :

doing this weekend
overrrrr. but on sat i was over at zik's (pretty much stayed over at uc on friday night) and then went to pancake parlour then went skirt shopping. home. zik came over on sun :)

wearing
shorts and a hoodie

want
to sleep in his arms

listening to
my sister watching american pie

smell like
shampoo

4. Do you

believe in soulmate
now i think i do..

believe in miracles
someitmes..

burn quickly in the sun
i tan easy

Who to tag?
YOU

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

omigawddddddd!!

i have a German Shepherd!!

eeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkk...!!!

now, when we get him..her.. it (?)
we've gotta train 'it' to live in peace with dinner with buffy.

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

5

thats right bitches

i'm back to updating.. in colour !!

i have my lap top back (yes, i got it back a while ago) but i only just got to reinstalling all my software and shit this morning.

i havent had the time to put all my songs back in (because downloading from my imac which disagrees with my external hard drive is not fun when i have over 2 close to 3 thousand songs - most stolen from jamestanpt)

meh..

anyway.. byeee.. gonna meet the boyfriend in 8 mins

kisses. misses.

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

i know i skipped 7 and just went on to 6 before..

thanks james ><

1. Open your library. (iTunes, Windows Media Player, iPod, etc.)
2. Turn on ’shuffle’.
3. Press ‘play’.
4. For every section, type the song that’s playing.
5. When you’re on to a new question, press ‘next’on your player.
6. Don’t lie and try to pretend you’re cool by hiding your Hilary Duff and Westlife songs.


Opening credits:
'empty appartment' - yellowcard :

Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down
As I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes
You forget where the heart is





Waking up:
'mocking bird' - eminem :

Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upperlip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright





First day of school:
'candy shop' - 50 cent Ft Olivia :

I'll take you to the candy shop
I'll let you lick the lollypop
Go 'head girl, don't you stop
Keep going 'til you hit the spot





Falling in love:
'red is the new black' - funeral for a friend :
Cant pretend that you're nothing special
You've got to look at all of your options
You cant decide what to go for
When its all about trust
Its all about trust





Fight song:
'torn' - le toya luckett :

A part of me wants to leave you alone
A part of me wants for you to come home
A part of me says I'm livin a lie (and I'm better off without you)
A part of me says to think it through
A part of me says I'm over you
A part of me wants to say goodbye





Breaking up:
'breaking the habit' - linkin park :

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I’m picking me apart again
You all assume
I’m safe here in my room
(unless I try to start again)
I don’t want to be the one
The battles always choose
‘Cause inside I realize
That I’m the one confused





Prom:
'mistaken identity' - delta goodrem :

The girl in the chair with the long golden hair
Well that used to be me
A flirtatious smile unpredictably wild
Always trying to please
I was always walking one step ahead
Or so I thought until the monster crawled into my bed
Rewind and erase that shock look on your face
Just'cause your mona lisa is dead

A million words, a thousand days

The girl I used to be
has a terrible case of mistaken identity
yesterday's girl is not what you see
It's a terrible case of mistaken identity





Life is okay:
'girlfriend' - avril lavigne [remix]

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don’t like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
You know it’s not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend

You’re so fine
I want you mine
You’re so delicious
I think about ya all the time
You’re so addictive
Don’t you know what I could do to make you feel alright?
Don’t pretend I think you know I’m damn precious
And Hell Yeah
I’m the motherfucking princess
I can tell you like me too and you know I’m righ




Mental breakdown:
'bring me to life' - evanesence :

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become





Driving:
'game of love' - michelle branch , santana

It just takes a little bit of this, a little bit of that
It started with a kiss
Now were up to bat
A little bit of laughs, a little bit of pain
Im telling you my babe
Its all in the game of ...
Love





Flashback:
'prayer' - anthony callea :

I pray you’ll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don’t know





Getting back together:
'down' - kutless

A younge girl walks into her room and doesn't like what she sees
In her reflection there,she's not what she wants to be
She cries out,she cries out





Wedding:
'the little things give you away' - linkin park :

Don't want to reach for me do you?
I mean nothing to you
The Little Things Give You Away
And now there will be no mistaking
The levees are breaking
All you've ever wanted
Was someone to truly look up to you
And six feet under water
I do





Birth of first child:
'kins and carrol' - the red jumpsuit apparatus :

You broke my heart again
And now I know
If this a test
I'm gonna fail it my best
The only way to stay true.
And this is my destiny and there is no helping me
Life is bittersweet





Final battle:
'lucky' - hoobastank :

Before I couldn't get a break,
Never had a chance to make
The impressions I want to
But now it falls right into place
When I get to see your face
Then there's nothing that I can't do...





Death scene:
'Short for Show' - From Autumn to Ashes
Don't you
Try to tell me
That your life
Feels empty

On his deathbed, our hero preaches his testimony, of how life is abundant, and that he has died.. filled!




Funeral song:
'to the end' - my chemical romance:

Now come one come all to this tragic affair
Wipe off that makeup - what's in is despair
So throw on the black dress
Mix in with the lot
You might wake up and notice
you're someone you're not
If you look in the mirror and don't like what you see
You can find out first hand what it's like to be me
So gather 'round piggies and kiss this goodbye
I'd encourage your smiles
I'll expect you won't cry






Ending credits:
'soulmate' - natasha bedingfield
Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
you're not easy to find
Is it possible Mr. Loveable
is already in my life?
right in front of me
or maybe you're in disguise

xoxo
you know you love me

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6

OMIGOD.

mid sems are hereeeeeeeee =)

two weeks of complete utter slacking.

sigh..

.. i know..

its not enough!

but anyway..

last night, it was com-fabulous.

okay okay, it wasnt that great, but i did have a little fun.

we - victor, james, rachel, amelia, ashley, carolyn, mj, zik and i - went for dinner at the garage.

and guess what we saw?

santa uses an imac lappie!


bwahhahaa-

desert at MB where because ash was completely and utterly fab.. complained that our cookie shake wasnt up to standards and we got another one (me, being the genious that i was, drunk my first one up so that i could have seconds :p ) which left me shiverring in the cold while we waited for the tram to head back to UC.

rachell left to go back to singapore

and we bummed at ash's room for a bit.

come afternoon and zik and i headed out for pancakes at pancake parlour. (yes, its my first time there) and then just went around shopping.

and i tried on skirts.

yes, skirtSSSSSS.

plural, not singular.

and yes, i was amazed that i dared.

blah.

this was sort of the winner.


basement shopping led to interesting photo taking





home.

snort.

oh oh, mum gave me my present and its actually pretty cute :p

thanks :)

xoxo
you know you love me

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8 - funny bunny.

out bunny is a little retarded..

she has a little bit of a species identity problem.

honestly!

she licks, comes when zik whistles (or was that pure chance?), comes when we snap our fingers, jumps up on tables and sleeps on her side



okay, so i had to kinda hold her in that way but she fell asleep.


come on, admit it. she;s cute.


and yes, that means YOU james, admit she's cute!

xoxo
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still 9

sometimes, buffy just makes me wanna hug her all day.


her rabbit cage is here!! :D


okay, lets get cracking with the fucking assignments. no more procrastinating (yeah, right)

xoxo
you know you love me

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9

UGH

sometimes, i really think that god is playing an utter horrible prank on me.

he's such a bully!

i got up early (okok, leets give credit where its due..) because isaac called me to wake me up. god knws that i wouldnt have woken up if he hadnt had called me and ensured that i walked to the bathroom for a wash up.

god damnit.

i woke up EARLY to go for my Australian Flora And Fauna tutorial for the first time (because i just always crash the 10.00am Wednesday one instead) AND I FIND THAT THERE IS NO CLASS ON THIS WEEK.

why?

because we have an assignment due this friday which is so utterly painfully boring and dull and annoying that i havent even bothered to write answers down into the answer booklet even if i have researched it all.

ngeh.

I COULD HAVE SLEPT IN AND WOKEN UP AT 2pm!!

so now i am forced to go for the 10.00am chem lecture followed by my 11.00am bio lecture then the 12.00pm psych lecture (which i havent attnded in over 2 weeks).

i swear, zik and i try to go to class.

blame it on the weather, the boring lecturer, our lack of self control but not on us :p

yes, yes, i am immature

but then again..

i am still 'only' 18 :p

not to mention that i am dragging my psychology text book around for my psychology assignment.

hmm..

i wonder if zik would allow me to use his room while he goes for hte later chem and bio lectures because i would never get work done at home.

there are too many people pointing out what i am not doing right..

.. WHEN I AM TRYING TO DO MY ASSIGNMENT.

okay, okay, i left it for the last minute but not my fault that psych has to choose shitty topics.

there i go again, immature-ing again..

lovess :)

xoxo
you know you love me

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isaac has officially lost it.

and no, i dont mean sexually.

or do i?

but anyway..

zik cuddles buffy on lap crooning about what a good girl she is when suddenly...

"oh shit..! buffy!! she's shitting on me..!!"

zik puts buffy into her box

*scolds buffy*

'you know where the shit is going?!..'

'..ON YOU!!'

*dumps all the shit on top of poor buffy*

xoxo
you know you love me

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10

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you know you love me

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11

FUCKING BITCH.

pain the the god damn ass.

just go the fuck away and life your own fucking life

xoxo
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marriage.

why the hell do girls MY age wanna get married?!

i mean, to be engaged..

.. yea, sure..

it IS a serious step but it sure as hell is waaay better than a damned wedding.

fuck!

even if youlllllllliiiiii9

(that was Buffy's doing)

77777er7e ppppppppppppppppppppissssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

(once again, Buffy)

anyway, even if you are sure.. there really isnt any rush into a wedding, right?

why not just.. drag the engagement for a while?

scary.

people i know getting married, having kids. (well, the kids part was accidental.. but still).

it just seems a little..

premature.

-

the jesus christ lizard (basilisk lizard)




xoxo
you know you love me

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12

-

something i wrote a while ago

:

what could this be,
stupidity?

i laugh at myself
i dont know
not anymore
and i dont want to know

not caring
i shut it aside
lock it up
throw the key away

deep,
deeper still
furthur and furthur
into the corners of my mind.

time had other plans
they find it
naive;
thinking that they would set me free
instead,
they cast it
furthur into abyss

maybe i might need it someday
no,
i wont.
no one should find it,
not even i
yet someone did
is he any different?

as he approached
i will myself not to run
yet i step back;
reflect
memories of pain, frustration, betrayal;
abandonment.

painful realization;
love is not the enemy,
only fear
yet love paid the price.

as he drew closer still
tears flow,
demented images danced,
flickering across her eyelids

i live a life governed by fear;
thus, i fail to live.

-

OMIGODDDDD..! i AM getting OLD.

O-L-D.

shiteous.

xoxo
you know you love me

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little overly spoilt ball of fluff.

so.. i still dont wanna go to bed..

wide awake like some damn nocturnal possum or some shit.

anyway..

headed over to uc today with the intention of settling some tension between me and fly.

and yes, i agree that we're both stubborn headed people who are alike but unfortunately not about the same things.

but as i was heading over to her room with a mediator..

she heads out the door. -_-"

so we headed over to mediator #2's room where we woke her up and i managed to scare her by holding buffy right in front of her sleepy eyes.

anyway, we played with buffy and let her roam around in ash's room.


[psst, this is the part where you go 'awwwwwhhhhhh'!!]

because admit it. buffy does look adorably cute and oh-so-squishable.

(please dont.)

anyway, ash headed for lunch and zik and i headed back to his room to bum where i started to get a tad bit annoyed..

then we headed out to Norsiah's for lunch.. oh wait. norsiah's was closed so we went to rice bar instead. (i made a mistake on my survey that i just did) with jeff and james. mj joined us halfway and they all fussed over buffy.

yes, fussed.

even if it were death threats.

james: 'you should name her dinner'

and all his nonsense about getting another bunny (male) to mate with buffy so that there would be little fluff balls that they could make into stew.

*shudders*

anyway, back to uc where i got jealous on a few OTHER occasions.

isaac cuddles buffy. baby talks to buffy. and just basically got excited over buffy and i just sat/lay watching.


okay okay, i admit, i'm just throwing a fuss here so that you'd pamper me :p

all that aside..

i loved watching isaac fuss over buffy.. get excited when buffy licks him..

.. and especially watching isaac be so gentle and how he has this indescribable smile whenever buffy curls up against him..


.. i dont know where i was going with that bunch of mush.

i headed back home stopping for a krispy kreme on the way.

shiteous. that's going straight to my ever expanding stomach.

shower.

came out and richie and sha were over.

they gave me my birthday present (because richie wasnt gonna be around during my birthday coz he was going to sydney to buy his 6th-7th(?) car of the year) and then we had some fun driving over things with his car before heading back into the house (all the while i paraded around in my bathrobe..) and richie tried to teach me to use ebay coz i have never in my life touched/used ebay.

anyway, i ended up bullying isaac into agreeing to get a cage for buffy (coz we were talking about getting buffy a proper cage) .


it should arrive in 2-3 days.

little overly spoilt ball of fluff.

-

i hope all goes well and that i earn enough money to fly down..

-

xoxo
you know you love me

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because i am bored and lazy and am letting two assignments sit on their asses

Are your nails painted right now?
=nope.. i only own an 'emo matte black' polish (which i have been 'banned' from using :p) and a see through one - pointless. only use it as a top coat ><

Is your computer in your room?
= i have an imac in my room.. my newer imac in the living room which i am using now and my lap top which moves everywhere

Are you still living with your parents?
= yea.. can really be a pain sometimes but i like it.. .. in really small doses.

What are you listening to right now?
= meh.

What are your favorite lyrics from 2 songs?
= "you know everything that i'm afraid of" - crush
"i wanna make you smile.. whenever .." - grow old with you

Do you have best friends?
= :) zaneta. and heaps of loved ones.

Name everything you ate today.
= ughh.. some puff thing.. chicken curry at norsiah's.. one krispy creme and 5 won tons.

What color is your desktop on your computer?
= which computer?! O_o

Love/Hate
Do you hate anyone?
= i dont hate.. i disagree.

Do you love anyone?
= they are called loved ones for a reason..

Do you still have feelings for your ex bf/gf?
= if i did.. i wouldnt be in a relationship now.

Have you ever lost a friend for a stupid reason?
= yes. anisha's birthday 2005.

Would u ever pretend to like someone for their money?
= no.. i dont think i could.. ever.

If u could marry any celebrity,who would it be?
= dont date grossly overpaid, sexual disease carrying, constantly cheating bastard

More randomness.
Do u have a favorite celeb?
= no.

What song are you listening to now?
= nothing

Have you ever heard of McFly? If so whos ur favorite member?
= yes. in that movie with lindsay lohan.. 'just my luck' and i dont like any of them.

Do u even use ur myspace?
= no.

Who is ur 6th friend on ur top friends?
= O_o

What time did you go to bed last night?
= 4ish.

When are you next going to see your best friend?
= when we are both in the same place at the same time. kinda difficult. perth. melbourne. kl. ugh.

Why do people like you?
= you tell me.

Do you think school is a waste of time?
= no. we just learn useless crap that one day comes in handy.

What is ur latest annoyance?
= procrastination.. which i have been doing too much of

Is ur room messy?
= yes! fuck yes!

What is infront of you besides ur computer screen?
= tv, dvd player, books, lap top, handphone

Do u have any posters?
= yea

Whats ur favorite CD that u own?
= download ;)

DO YOU HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE TYPE IN
CAPS?
= dont fucking care.

Do u like it when people say they love you?
= only when it means something.i get annoyed when ppl overuse and abuse it.

xoxo
you know you love me

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3 words..

You have to use 3 words to answer each question. No more, no less.

1. Where is your cell phone?
-on the table

2. Your girlfriend/boyfriend/hubby?
- i miss him :(

3. Your hair?
- wet messy tangles

4. Where is your father?
- somewhere in malaysia

6. Your favorite thing to do?
- too many, no?

7. Your dream last night?
- i cant remember

8. Your favorite drink?
- cant really decide

9. Your dream car?
- blur about cars

10. The room youre in?
- damned living room

12. Your fears?
- abandonment and more :p

14. Who did you hang out with last night?
- zik, buffy, family

15. What arent you good at?
- flipping people off.

16. Muffins?
- from uni shop.

17. One of your wish list items?
- check wish list

19. The last thing you did?
- ask zik something

20. What are you wearing?
- only my bathrobe

22. Your pet?
- buffy flat nosed.

23. Your computer?
- i have two..

24. Your life?
- is becoming great

25. Your mood?
- a roller coaster

26. Missing?
- the loved ones

xoxo
you know you love me

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self inflicted torture.

i know i shouldnt blame you.

yet i do.

i know its wrong.

yet i do anyway.

its just that i am so fucking sick of caring.

trying to do the right thing or trying to set things right fucks everything else up.

i'm cracking..

.. and we're cracking because of it.

its what you wanted right?














i'm not gonna give in.

xoxo
you know you love me

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the buffy bunny

oh guys, the thing on the 14th has been cancelled >< - i have a new lecturer for 'australian flora and fauna' (i swear, the whole post isnt this boring..) its kinda funny how some birds that used to have been believed as monogomous are actually 'cheaters'. i kinda forgot the name of the bird but the male finds a mate, builds a nest with her and leaves her as he goes looking for a new chick. to woo her, he picks this small yellow flower for her.. ladedadeda.. -_-" what. the. fuck. and its normal for this species of birds. oh, but dont worry and dont feel bad for the female sitting at the new nest.. studies show that approximately 76% of the offspring that the male bird 'fathers' really isnt his at all. even the female birds know how to get even. anyway, psych tutes can really be a drag.. .. especially when it involves QM. QM is a bitch, ladies and gentleman.. and needs to burn. actually, any sort of maths needs to go screw themselves. naturally, zik and i got bored..


oh oh!! guess what?



guys, i want you to meet buffy.




=)

asking yourself why we named her buffy?

just take a close look at her nose..


and take a look at this..


so guys, say hi to our little buffy


-

After A While

After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn
that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security.

And you begin to learn
that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of woman, not the grief of a child

And you learn
to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is
too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down
in mid-flight.

After a while you learn
that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure
you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn
with every goodbye, you learn...

© 1971 Veronica A. Shoffstall


xoxo
you know you love me

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yawn..

my sleeping pattern is so screwed up..

i cant sleep at night and end up snoring like a log during lectures and after uni like the fat lump of blubber that i am.

fuck.

-

the birthday wish list continues

8) Revlon - dark pleasures -

either the colours 'talk dirty' or 'purple pleasure'



9) a hair cut

10) a nice fashionable bag that is big enough to fit my uni stuff (and not just the occasional text book but my lab coat, disecting kit, you know, being a science student and all)

xoxo
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silent chills

ever go about things and just suddenly get this really bad chill?

like.. everything is just about to go wrong?

i do.

xoxo
you know you love me

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