the cut.

a couple of days ago i got this call from a friend of mine at 12.40am asking for a favour.

i said i'd help him out even though it would be zeke doing the 'work'

(i'm sorry baby, i should have asked you if its okay first)

and then i realized, why should i?

you. piss. me. off.

what got me really pissed off was that this guy couldn't even call me when i was interested to go to his youth group after promising numerous times (in front of mutual friends) since the beginning of the year, couldnt even call me when a friend of ours, alison, came down for a week to visit. even when i called and messaged him while she was down, he didnt pick up is phone or reply any of the messages.

first of all, he doesnt talk to me unless he wants something or talk about girls/religion/relationships (i know that is alot to talk about but less than 5 times a year for a conversation is pretty little, no?)

second of all, you call me in the middle of the night, asking for a favour and then i find out that the reason why you're even calling me is because its a favour for your girlfriend.

what the fuck is this?

you. are. an. ass.

you preach your messages but it all doesnt mean shit.

you talk big about wanting to bring me to church but never get back to me about the timings and when they are going to happen (because they arent on every week).

okay, i'm not pissed. rather, i'm disappointed. disappointed in people like you.

you make promises you cant keep.

your hypocrisy sickens me.

its sad, really. that we used to be close once (even though you did frame me for loosing our homework when you had it the whole time) and now, we're just associates, barely even that.

life moves on.

and we make better friends as we grow up.

i know i have.

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ticked

gets really annoyed when people who havent bothered to maintain their friendship with you calls you out of the blue and asks for a favor.

what. the. fuck.

its not a problem to do a favor for you but please, at least have the decency to maintain contact. and also, a thank you after would be good.

ass.

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investments gone wrong..

AUD$***,*** gone..






FUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKK!




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fuck you

fuck you.

what? you cant hear me?

fuck you bitch.

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i cant stand it when..

it annoys me when i need to do work but just dont seem to be able to do anything productive (unless you count folding all the clothes i've let pile up in a corner of my room).

seriously. my brain capacity has decreased a hundred fold.

this afternoon, there was this crossword thing which clue said heavenly body for 4 places and i said NICE because for some reason, i thought in a very 'man' way and you know how they leer and women's body and comment and..

shuttup.

i know i know.

dumb.

anyway, classes today and coz i've been kinda sick for the past few days i fell asleep on zik during our biochemistry class and.. goddamnit i had zipper imprints on my cheek!

the shame! the shame!!!

anyway, after all our classes, zik and i headed over to this place to get our hair cut. i think zik looks so much like an anime character now (especially so because we did his hair red yesterday)

i would put pictures up but for some reason, the phone didnt save any of the pictures i took today :(

i had really cute pictures of puppies from the pet store too! :(

anyway, we both left the hairdressers pleased and zeke commented that i kept running my hands through my hair. its so much lighter!

it must be a third time lucky thing or sumthing because after disaster dye (disaster 1) with the bleached streaks last year and disaster 2 with the perming in singapore, i was about to give up on hairdressers.

my hair is so damaged that i want to cry buckets and be unreasonable but today's hairdresser was a doll.

she helped me subtly rid my head of the streaks.

after that, zik and i hung out at melbourne central for a little bit. <3>


the other one.. you'll just have to wait. or maybe not because its not as designed as the one on top :)

meh. it amuses me when people photoshop nipples away from lingerie adverts
so unnatural!

its like i'm staring at some alien.

eek!

go forth and photoshop nipples on titless models!

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mei mei

just because jess's dog was so cute when she was a puppy.


not to mention that she is pissing me off so much i want to use the internet wires to hang myself.

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fuck you.

i dont give a fuck anymore. just because you know that i need the god damn money for the trip, dont think you can hold it over my head to do things for you. they have a word for it; blackmail. i dont need this shit. especially not from you. so fuck off. keep your damn money. i'd rather have a poverty trip than to have you hold everything i do less than perfect or even give my two cents of the situation over my head.

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optimism died with chivalry.

happy december.

christmas is coming..

lonesome christmas time.

the year is coming to a close..

a new year's coming..

pfft.

who needs optimism?

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dysfunctional

i wonder if i move out what'll i do..

there'd be no way in hell i'd be able to support myself with work and uni.

meh.

life's a bitch.

frustrated.

infuriated.

headache-ing already larrrr.

i wont be able to survive here because i will die (probably from nagging/fighting/screaming overload) and i wont be able to survive out there because i'd also die (mostly from hunger but maybe thats a good thing coz i've expanded to the size of hippopotamuses and have thighs that resemble Trex's and arms that thinks like its the BRITISH during WW2).

oh jebus.

i'm pretty much fucked dont i just wish.. and fat.

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9

UGH

sometimes, i really think that god is playing an utter horrible prank on me.

he's such a bully!

i got up early (okok, leets give credit where its due..) because isaac called me to wake me up. god knws that i wouldnt have woken up if he hadnt had called me and ensured that i walked to the bathroom for a wash up.

god damnit.

i woke up EARLY to go for my Australian Flora And Fauna tutorial for the first time (because i just always crash the 10.00am Wednesday one instead) AND I FIND THAT THERE IS NO CLASS ON THIS WEEK.

why?

because we have an assignment due this friday which is so utterly painfully boring and dull and annoying that i havent even bothered to write answers down into the answer booklet even if i have researched it all.

ngeh.

I COULD HAVE SLEPT IN AND WOKEN UP AT 2pm!!

so now i am forced to go for the 10.00am chem lecture followed by my 11.00am bio lecture then the 12.00pm psych lecture (which i havent attnded in over 2 weeks).

i swear, zik and i try to go to class.

blame it on the weather, the boring lecturer, our lack of self control but not on us :p

yes, yes, i am immature

but then again..

i am still 'only' 18 :p

not to mention that i am dragging my psychology text book around for my psychology assignment.

hmm..

i wonder if zik would allow me to use his room while he goes for hte later chem and bio lectures because i would never get work done at home.

there are too many people pointing out what i am not doing right..

.. WHEN I AM TRYING TO DO MY ASSIGNMENT.

okay, okay, i left it for the last minute but not my fault that psych has to choose shitty topics.

there i go again, immature-ing again..

lovess :)

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11

FUCKING BITCH.

pain the the god damn ass.

just go the fuck away and life your own fucking life

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i just called to say..

i am getting annoyed, and i dont know if its due to the lack of colours on my blog page :(

thats the one thing i dont like about using my mac.

anyway, i skipped out on set construction today but i did end up taking Hugo out for his walk.

that overactive poodle is now able to walk by my side without a leash and wont run off (unless of course my siblings start screaming at him)

i guess, i'm kind of happy bout Hugo's progress. a lady driving by stopped and praised me bout Hugo :

lady : beautiful dog you have there
(what she really means : nice colour coordination there [Hugo is all black and i was decked in black everything])
me : thank you, he isnt mine
lady : oh? *big eyes*
(she stole a dog, oh my god, thats why she's dressed all in black *reaches for phone to call police)
me : i just train him and take him for walks
lady : do you train children too?
me : O_o err.. hehheh..

sigh.

alloc8 is STILL being a fuckwit.

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the last time.

its not flattering. its annoying. and right now, its plain tiresome.

if you dont know me, dont add me.

come on.

a little bit of respect.. please?

i dont want to know what you can offer, i dont care if you want to be my boyfriend, i just dont care okay?

*

i feel irritated. back off. i bite. and you wont like it.

*

i wouldnt say that i am superstitious but i like to read horoscopes.

i dont believe in 'the seven years of bad luck' and i dont believe that walking under ladders would bring you bad luck (but it can be stupid especially if someone reaaaaaally heavy is jumping up and down the (possibly unstable) ladder)

anyway, happy friday the 13th :)

*

dad just called from singapore..

.. apparently his business partners are asking about me coz the last time he went down, i tagged along.

i think one of them wants to set up his son with me -_-"

he keeps talkin about how me and his son used to run around playing while we were younger.. i think my dad is thankful that it was when they were younger and not now because that would be so wrong.

*

*snort*

*

just looking back = )












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my computer in PMS-ing

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH MY COMPUTER THAT IT DOESNT ALLOW ME TO LOG THE FUCK ON!?!?

its not funny. its not funny at all.

what the fuck?

i logged on this afternoon at 2.00pm and worked perfectly.

i log on 4 hours later and there's a problem.

WHAT THE HELL

i am annoyed and panicky enough as it is coz i didnt back up last months photos yet and alot of my songs on the itunes and i do not need my mother to tell me that i have been spending too much time online that is why my computer is being a fucking bitch neither do i need my sister to tell me that i probably downloaded a virus or some shit

i did not download ANYTHING the last time i went online.

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

ughhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

i am so frustrated, its not funny.

blogging with my mother's computer is a bitch and a half (which i am doing now).

please let my dad come back soon and probably hear about my computer's bitchy ways before he flies back so that he can spoil me with a new computer so that i will not have to turn to hybernating in my bed with 'the assistant' and my ipod.

guys, i am depressed. utterly annoyed. and definately jittery.

i need my computer to work.

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