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i know what i want to get you for Christmas !!

now i'm just worried that its an inappropriate present to give to him in front of his parents (no, its nothing kinky) but in a way that it might, possibly be a cruel way of reminding them that he's growing up and that we're serious, serious as in wanting to spend the rest of our lives with each other..

i dont think parents want to see their kids grow independent from them too much.

and i think i am over- reading this present but regardless, i dont think its something to "rub" in his parents faces.

sigh.

i dont think i have a christmas present after all.

xoxo
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rant rant

ewww, miss malaysia interworld candidates are fcking ugly!!

=.=

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RANT

UGH.

this is so not the right way to start my week.

first, mum has been bugging me to hand in my citizenship form (which i couldnt do because she had it and then she had my passport picture) so finally when i did get everything she wanted me to hand it in ASAP saying that the process would be "very very fast wan!"

this morning i woke up and got ready all before 8.30 to make it to the immigration office by 9.30-mum said she'd drop me off- anyway, before we left the house she said, "i dont think you'd be able to make it for your 10am class if we're gonna give in your citizenship stuff"

!!!

after countless times of hearing "its gonna be very fast wan" and "all you have to do is hand in the forms" she neglected to tell me that there was only a CHANCE that it would be fast =.=

me being at the immigration office, i know that it would only take 10 mins to 'hand in a form' but my mother neglected to tell me that there was gonna be alot of other stuff to tend to on the basis of i should know better

I SHOULD KNOW BETTER?!

perhaps i should have known to drill her to oblivion with cynical questions before agreeing to do this on a monday morning.

anyway, i got into the car with her anyway because she still insisted on sending me to uni after dropping my brother off.

big fat mistake #2

we got into a very heated arguement which is obviously not resolved yet.

i'm annoyed.

its like a huge annoying thing la!

i think its the same concept as me asking her to send me somewhere at peak hour saying that it wont be 'jammed' at the area because, hey, i've been to the area and have 'experience' so to speak and her sending me on the day itself only for me to tell her that, hey, it might only be jammed and then mucking up the rest of her plans.

yes. i am annoyed.

you would think that because of my angry look walking into uni this morning that people would stay away but this moron hounded me about some 'retaliation vote' or some crap.

i think majority of australians are spoilt.

so what if you have a five day week at uni?

deal with it.

it would be nice to have a day off but why go through such great lengths to have a 12 hour uni week or whatever crap?

UGH.

dont mess with me today because you might just find yourself without a head.

xoxo
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pigs and thongs

haiyah.

i dont want to study :(

all i want to do is sleep and that is what i've been doing the whole of today.

isaac thinks says i'm a like a little piggie.

i think say i'm a not so little fat pig.

i had spam with baked beans and i like it!

random? yeah, i know.

spam is luncheon meat.

i dont understand why people in different countries insist on calling certain things different things.

like thongs !

goddamnit it- the first time i heard my cousin say she was wearing thongs i had a very very grossed out image of

instead of
which was obviously what she meant.

why la?!













does anyone else agree with me that since i started to date isaac i've started to talk/blog/whatever else more asian than normal?!

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creative bitching

crayons on pavement.

he's got talent!!

and i've got mochi..

or rather, i had them anyway :(
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the sexy schoolgirl

something happened. and until its something out in the open, i'm afraid i cant say anything about it. but remind me again sometime bah! you all know i'll blog about it when things settle down.

on a little more gossipy scale.. between a couple of people, we have this drama we like to call 'the UC' sort of like in butt honour of the OC.

and i think it suits it.

bitchy. drama. scandals.

and if you think that the UC sounds familiar. it stands for University College.

there are too many gossipy things that i'd love to share here (maybe i could be a modern day 'gossip girl') but hey, even i have secrets (that i share with people who ask nicely)

i'd say, lets start with gossip as of last year but then, i have a damn conscience.

funny seeing that i'd feel more guilty bloggin about it than to just 'tell' someone about it.

why?

maybe because then i'd get to control the extend of my firespreading ways.

***

i might head down to christchurch mid year to ski.. but lets see how my second fund raising trip will go.

***

mum cut her hair into a pob and i think she looks cute :)

about damn time you got a change~!

***

go forth and reproduce while i lie at home finishing my second/third? anita blake book of the day.

of the day people!

go shag~

xoxo
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bitch bitch bitch

ahh, new love.. mochi! (at least i think thats how i'm supposed to spell it)
anyway, i was trying on jackets today and ohmygod i've put on weight or at least i think i put on weight anyway.
omigod..!!!!

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argh!

you know how it is when you put your favourite song as your alarm and after a couple of mornings you just want to stab the damn thing crazy?

notice anything different?

yes, that stupid song thing drives me insane because i am always on my blog page and i am always hearing that damn song!

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pole jammed up your ass.

just because you're the family favourite and i'm the rebel child doesnt give you the fucking right to act like someone's grandmother.

bitch.

xoxo

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breakfast at tiffany's

when i was younger i used to get jealous of my cousin because her boyfriend spoilt her to death and a half.

come on!

you'd be jealous too if your friends boyfriend went berserk and bought her roses, like heaps of them, big fat teddy bears (and i mean BIG and not just one).

and then the designer jewelry and shit.

yes, i know i sound so damn superficial right now..

but hey, girls want to know that they're worth something that is like phroaarrrrrrrrr and not just something that is affordable sometimes.

see, i can be reasonable. i said sometimes~!

so guys, go buy thy girlfriend big big diamonds!

xoxo
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almost.two.thousand. *updated*

i just realized if i count up all the posts i've made on blog(s), the figure is quite very impressive.

i'm glad i've grown so much since then.

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you know how i talked about the two month jitters that i used to get?

a couple of days ago (i think it was monday) i got the jitters come raining down on my parade.

guys, dont get me wrong here and start assuming i'm going to hurt the one guy i'd take bullets while walking on fire for.

but on monday, after my little mini shopping trip, zik and i were walking at melbourne central when we came across jay walker art .


guys, jay walker is an amazing artist. his artwork is hip and drool worthy but definitely not in the mona lisa way.

i'm sure teens wouldnt want mona lisa staring back at them on their walls (even if the price is out of a regular teen's wallet capacity) .

but anyway, jay walker is like a graffiti artist on canvas.

zik and i love his pieces and have been contemplating getting him to design a piece for us since ages.

but on monday when we were there right in front of jay, hearing the price of the dream piece. it just made me.. suddenly want to screech stop!

its going to be a really lovely piece.. but the price!

even if zik and i want to always be together, the idea of forking out $300 apiece for a contemporary artistic graffiti piece with our names incorporated in just made me want to scream, run and hide underneath, ironically, isaac's blanket.

am i somewhat scared that i'm going to be investing quite a butt load amount of money on something that we plan on making last but somehow might just not to?

sigh.

i know what i want to in my heart.. but my head wants me to know it knows 'better'..

if my mom can accept and see us going that far, why cant my bloody brain?

and trust me, my mum does not give in easy.

if she's come to terms.. i would have already heard whatever you're going to tell me about how young i am and how i shouldnt decide yet and that i have a whole life ahead of me and i should take one day at a time and whatever rubbish you want to tell me.

sometimes, its just possible to just know something.

ugh. now i'm just hoping, (heart knowing, brain's rolling his eyes), that one day, this wont come and bite me in the ass.

hard.

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gimme a blue diamond.

ugh ugh ugh!

dont you girls hate it when men (especially your boyfriends) ignore you when they're playing their ps3 or whatever rubbish that they have and you're left there blundering like a blistering idiot?

well, zik did that to me again on wednesday night and i got bloody pissed off at him.

(lets pretend i'm not being overly harshed about this and lets just assume he's completely wrong and i am right just because this is my blog)

anyway, i called him when i was walking back from the train station to my house completely in distress because trains to my house were not running for the gazzilion time and i had to wait for close to two hours for one that didnt even go to MY train station and had to walk extra far to get home and i needed to talk to someone (and who better than your loved one, right?) so i called him but he was too preoccupied with his game that i was pretty much ignored. fine. so then i messaged him and because he was so bloody preoccupied with his damn ps3 again that he completely didnt even realize i sent him a message.

at this point, i was completely and utterly pissed off.

so i did what any immature girl would do.. i ignored him until he called.

anyway, after a huge blow up..

even though i was completely and utterly impatient and stupid and ignorant.. he was patient and even 'made it up to me' by taking me out the next day for an awesome movie..

gold class baby!

we watched vantage point

and ordered heaps of food and what not.. i had my lemon lime bitters and pretty much a full course meal.

sigh,

i swear i get pampered by him even when i'm unreasonable

anyway, there went my thursday and my friday was spent at class and then sleeping like the oink oink that i am until about 7ish when i met up with cn, ash, vicky and fly for our girls night!

dinner at some japanese restaurant and then headed back to UC.. with mel in tow.

bummed around, did medi and pedicures, played ping pong, watched 'saved' and then slept in a little doggy pile.

vicky, carolyn and mel slept on the bed and cn, ash and i slept on the floor.

anywayyyyyyyyy, i shud go zzz now so till the next time..

have lots of sex.

xoxo
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short and sweet

fuck you bitch.

fuck you.

xoxo
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i'm too sexy..

oh god. i'm gonna be working tonight.

on valentine's night!

wish me luck because i shall be bombarded with heaps of lovey dovey couples drinking wine and celebrating love.

ick!

okay okay, i'm such a hypocrite because i'm the most pda person ever..

but thats not the point!

the point is that.. i'll be working (!!) after not working for over a month!

i'm a lazy arse and will probably spill food over all the lovey dovey customers (hah! serves them all right!)

meh.

xoxo
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kawaii~

dyed my hair brown to get rid of the horrifying bleach streaks that i did last year. pfft. i really need to stop dying my hair on whim.

i've been having sleep retardedness.

i blame it on trying to sleep alone and having a bunny sleep by my feet and waking me by licking my toes and, as evil as this sounds, when he leans on my calves and over heat it. *insert awwwwww here*

i'm singing christian songs and i have no idea why..

i've decided that i will take more care and put in more effort in dressing up this year and this time, i'm going to stick to it!

that means, make up, no nude nails and hair done to look okay.

i shall not let my hair-tardedness get the best of me!

and i'm gonna go beg roycelicious for some make up advice because, to be honest, he's the only one i know that can put make up flawlessly and make it look so cunningly barely there.

i shall detox and lose weight the healthy way ;hopefully exercise free and healthy eating and without puking my guts out into the glory bowl.

meh. and now, dinner beckons..

xoxo
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dont over do it

sigh, back in melbourne and once again.. its dreary and cold and lonely.

i miss staying at zik's because i get pampered to death

the flight was tolerable..

i got all the seats on my side of the aisle after changing planes at Darwin so the flight wasnt too bad then but the flight from singapore on to darwin was a fuckwit.

i got two chinese speaking crazy bitches who couldnt shut up even if their lips were stapled together to sit next to me and they yakked so much i was ready to cut off my ear.

when i arrived.. i called mum and.. she hadnt even left the house so i was stuck in melbourne's rain and wind for an hour an a half until i met gurukid and random phd boy until their rides all came and then i was alone again.

being home brings a certain comfort and alot of pain.

pangs.

i miss you so much..

this year, chinese new year isnt going to be very picture-y neither is it gonna be very happy..

i'll try but i apologize in advance anyway..










i'm this close to screaming my head off, crying my eyes out and drinking myself to sleep.

pfft. is it any wonder why i'm the problem child in the family?







apparently i lost weight..

.. but i think i look like i have developed a stomach.

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fuck you.

i dont give a fuck anymore. just because you know that i need the god damn money for the trip, dont think you can hold it over my head to do things for you. they have a word for it; blackmail. i dont need this shit. especially not from you. so fuck off. keep your damn money. i'd rather have a poverty trip than to have you hold everything i do less than perfect or even give my two cents of the situation over my head.

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if something meant something then would it mean anything now?

waking up at 3 pm has its advantages..

.. and disadvantages.

for one thing.. i actually get to catch up on sleep.. but miss out on half my day even if i know i wouldnt have done anything productive if i did wake up early anyway.

yawnnn

now i'm so damn lethargic its not even fun anymore

meh.

lazing around in bed makes me feel so useless after working so much for the past 5 days.

suddenly monday and tuesday has become my saturday and sunday.

christmas is coming and i know i should start feeling a little festive but i just feel like taking a fork and stabbing all those damn christmas carolers around, chucking cd players and radios into a pond and wrapping up empty boxes as christmas presents.


ugh..

i hate always going through the icky fucking mess of christmas shopping.

ICK!!

when you exchange gifts with someone, you'd feel bad if the gift you gave them is cheaper than the gift they gave you; not to mention that you also feel bad if it's the reverse.

"omigodddddddd!! a ps3!! i.. uh ... thanks ... i got you a bag of chips." before hastily adding "while you wait for the other half of your present..." or

"Oh wow! thanks.. a $2 photo frame!" before muttering under your breath that they're such a mother fucking cheapskate and start thinking if you can steal the present you gave them and get it refunded.

how many of us are guilty of 'organizing' our christmas presents?

if we calculate how much to spend on each person, doesnt that mean that we're basically putting a price on their worth or your love?

"how much is Tony worth? $50? $10?"

there's always the agonizing over what to get for your boyfriend/girlfriend

even more pressure when its the first christmas together or if they used to date someone who earns more than you and would buy extravagant gifts

"oh i thinks that guess watch would look nice on the boyfriend...oh what? its only how much? waaahh.. so cheap!"

while you sit there twiddling your thumbs thinking that its 435678765456 times of what you could make running about serving bastard customers who expect you to know that they're vegetarian when they dont bloody say so

and if you get them something cheap or make something at home, of course he or she would say, "you don't have to get me anything, or spend that much money on me..just as long as we can spend christmas together/you love me"

its sweet but doesnt that just sound a little like bullshit?

its my blog and i can be angsty if i want to

xoxo
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dysfunctional

i wonder if i move out what'll i do..

there'd be no way in hell i'd be able to support myself with work and uni.

meh.

life's a bitch.

frustrated.

infuriated.

headache-ing already larrrr.

i wont be able to survive here because i will die (probably from nagging/fighting/screaming overload) and i wont be able to survive out there because i'd also die (mostly from hunger but maybe thats a good thing coz i've expanded to the size of hippopotamuses and have thighs that resemble Trex's and arms that thinks like its the BRITISH during WW2).

oh jebus.

i'm pretty much fucked dont i just wish.. and fat.

xoxo
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i'm a mistake.

aahhh.. fanfuckingtastic.

my life. the dramatic piece of shit.

dont ask me what it is*.

dont try to tell me that things get better because they havent since i was much younger.

fuck this.

fuck you if what i hear is true.

i dont need someone like you in my life..

.. too bad we have to depend on you.

dont blame us for your mistakes.

dont take it out on us..

we sure as hell arent the mistake..

.. dont treat us like we are.




*not applicable for everyone.

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