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something i wrote a while ago
:
what could this be,
stupidity?
i laugh at myself
i dont know
not anymore
and i dont want to know
not caring
i shut it aside
lock it up
throw the key away
deep,
deeper still
furthur and furthur
into the corners of my mind.
time had other plans
they find it
naive;
thinking that they would set me free
instead,
they cast it
furthur into abyss
maybe i might need it someday
no,
i wont.
no one should find it,
not even i
yet someone did
is he any different?
as he approached
i will myself not to run
yet i step back;
reflect
memories of pain, frustration, betrayal;
abandonment.
painful realization;
love is not the enemy,
only fear
yet love paid the price.
as he drew closer still
tears flow,
demented images danced,
flickering across her eyelids
i live a life governed by fear;
thus, i fail to live.
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OMIGODDDDD..! i AM getting OLD.
O-L-D.
shiteous.
xoxo
you know you love me
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