one smile; game over

i think its weird when my mother knows that i'm sexually active and who i'm sexually active with.

poor zik. i dont think he knows how to face my mother now when he comes over for (the occasional) dinners.

* poor shan and shi (if they read my blog) *awkward wave* errr, hi? *

but hey, i'm not gonna complain.. it could definitely be much worst..

it could have been my dad

and that, my friend, would be the cause of my (eventual) death.

but i love it that my mother and i are so open about it because

1) i dont have to lie about where i'm staying for the night.. nights..
2) the really weird sex conversations and jokes that we have that make us both feel weird but leaves a smile on our faces whenever the other's gone.
3) well, she 'protects' me from my fathers evil old fashion mind (miracle how she does that without lying to him.)

meh.

i know i know.

this is a shit excuse of a blog post but i'm tired.

and its not because of sex.

its work god damnit!

ugh.. at least got a raise XD

anyway, i know i havent really updated in donkey ball years so here's how i (sort of) remember it:

thursday

was when zik touched down. i left the house an hour and a half earlier but damnit!

first of all. the trams were being monkey's balls and werent working.

secondly, when they WERE working, there was a retarded tram driver who refused to move his tram from the middle of the road.

#1 and #2 took up at least 50 minutes of my time and left me with about 40 minutes to make my way from the city centre (burke street) to the DFO on the Southern Cross station to buy a bus ticket to the air port to take the uber long bus ride (okay 'okay, it was only 20 but it was hell-o long).

but i made it on time and zik and shan were delayed ages and baboons ass long. so i waited..and waited..

i mean, i thought i was gonna be late and it was bad enough that i took into account the fact that their flight was delayed by an hour and gave them half an hour to get their sexxxy tushes out and ended up sms-ing zik kabazillion times apologizing about me going to be late and praying that he wouldnt leave without me because shan was already gonna be late for her orientation.

meh.

anyway, zik and shan were lining up for their baggage and zik told me he'd take at least another half an hour so i thought it would be fine to go relieve myself after almost pissing myself rushing about melbourne the way i was.

but oh no.

while i was.. erm.. 'busy' zik and shan came out 'because a new counter opened up and they got in it'

ugh.

so much for trying to surprize zik and pounce and smack and squish him into the ground with the uber enthusiastic hug i couldnt practice because i would cripple people.

anyway, they got out and we took a cab out to the city and helped shan find her way to the 'commerce talk' where we abandoned her (with good intention we swear!) so that she could make friends (hah! told you) without her brother and his retardedly fat girlfriend there to cripple her style.

and she did make friends.. she just waves and walked off without taking their numbers after that =.="

wasted lar!

anyway, after leaving shan (behind) zik and i had some lunch, unpacked some of his rubbish, did some grocery shopping, had a nap.. a really long one, and then headed out for dinner.

when we got back i got him to take an uber long shower (and poop) so that i could surprize him with..

candles everywhere in his room
and
candles on the floor spelling out 'i love u'

topped off with some strawberries and whipped cream that we could have.

yes. i'm a romantic..

now after setting the bar that high, i'm just gonna be here waiting for his part of our replacement valentine's day plan.

muahahhahahahhaahhahahaaha!

stay tuned. more to come!

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

dumb ass.

23 September 2002, Brazil

A farm keeper from São Paulo decided to remove a beehive from his orange tree. He didn't know exactly how to proceed, but he knew the hive should be burned, and he knew bees sting. So he protected his head with a plastic bag sealed tightly around his neck, grabbed a torch, and went off to fight the bees.

His worried wife went to look for him a few hours later, and found him dead. However, it wasn't the bees that killed him. The plastic bag had protected him from smoke, stingers, and... oxygen! He had forgotten to put breathing holes in the bag.

***

so, will be staying at zik's for the next few days..

i cant wait to get my boyfriend back!

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

embarassing heart to heart

made me tear up

okay, made me feel like crap for missing out so much by coming over to melbourne but hey, i guess thats life..

i think i regret the most about not taking much initiative to keep in contact with them when i first left and we've grown apart.

i really miss that.

i got in contact with kai tonight and it made me feel like i could still somehow 'connect' myself with those people..

.. i just dont know how.

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

damage do-ers.

you know something is seriously wrong with your neighbour when your new neighbour's friends come over to your 'room' and greets you with a, "can i borrow your knife? (the bigger the better)".

poor michelle..

her 'hallway mates' must think she associates with psychotics.

maybe we (stephen and i) should go to the other 'hallway door and ask for a chopper this time.

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

kindly unspoken - edited

for the past few days, zik and i have been fighting like cats and dogs and yesterday was the showdown.

i think it started with something along this line..

..he seemed to become too busy and too forgetful..

then he got annoyed that i started to get emotional over every little thing..

..over things that were 'worth it' to things that were just plain stupid

but i guess it was mostly because of the distance..

there were nights that i managed to sleep 'early'..

..but those nights were when i thought my pillow was a sponge bottomless pit

i wouldnt ever admit it..

..but i love the way how you look at me, smiling that smile that makes me melt

the way you pucker up your lips..

..and the way your eyes crinkle when you do..

i love the way how we can just be silly..

..even if it ends up in me pouting in a corner whenever you call me cute

the way you hold me while we sleep..

..and when you roll after me when i roll away..

yesterday i really thought i was going to lose you..
..and it made me realize just how much you mean to me..
how you make me feel..

..and what you mean to me..

everything.

***

that (finally) aside..

congratulations to the people who actually made it this far! (even if you skipped the whole soppy part up there)

but today was exhausting to death and a half.

waking up at 7am is not my cup of tea shot of tequilla especially since i slept at such a fucked up hour.

so much for showering to wake up because i just ended up in bed snoring my disastrous curls back into place..

..and waking up at 12.30 -__-"

UGH!

so much for helping michelle move into CS at 11am =.=

(in my pathetic defense, i've been waking up early the past two nights)

being girls, we finally left the house at 2.30 and headed into the city to buy her doona and quilt cover (she didnt like the quilts at ikea and the covering we got for it was 200x200 when queen sized blankets are 210x210 elsewhere -_-) and then over to stephen's.

stephen taught me how to play poker.

well.. kind of..

i wasnt really paying much attention but we played a couple of rounds and i kept losing.

so much for trying to make a quick buck.

the rest of the day passed in a blur of rushing to CS to meet rich and sha to collect michelles luggage, unpacking, messing around in michelle's room and then to rice bar for some dinner.

after dinner, we headed to safeway for some of her groceries and thats when michelle blurted this out to stephen..

"eh, what punya people are you!?"

"eh, what type of person are you!?"

poor stephen. i swear he looked confused for the longest time.

O_o ??

eeeehhh?!

after all was paid or stolen we crossed the road to get back to CS..

you know how when you walk across roads (legally, that is) cars turning into that lane would have to stop and wait till your butt-jesty get across?

well, michelle didnt know that and ended up crossing halfway.. freezing in her tracks before turning on her heel yelling, "car! C A R!" and racing back

bwahahhahahaha..!





now i just think that malaysians really cant drive for shit and dont respect pedestrians (and vice versa) thus scaring the poor and innocent causing them to make a fool of themselves in foreign countries.






i swear, michelle, i'd pay to watch that moment replayed again

xoxo

you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

moving in reverse

how did i let me get this way..

i'm holding too much inside.. again.

things are happening 5 months too late.

why am i starting to feel this way?

we need to talk.

I never feared the unexpected
Till I found myself in this peculiar place
Unaware of where I was headed
Turns out it was your footsteps I had chased

Well I should know so much better than this
But you've occupied the center of my universe

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

mei mei

just because jess's dog was so cute when she was a puppy.


not to mention that she is pissing me off so much i want to use the internet wires to hang myself.

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

kate voegele

i got hooked on one tree hill season 5 and its all good because it taught me a couple of things about my love life now..

not stuff that i never knew but stuff that i just decided to lock away and would rather ignore. meh.

but hey, i found a "new artist"

she rocks ass.

"no good" by her is fantastic and i love it.

just so you dont have to go and download it and whatever, here's the youtube (naturally from a part of one tree hill!) so you guys can hear her out before you go downloading :)

enjoy



xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

one tree hill season 5.

i know now..

and its all because of a tv show.

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

i'm too sexy..

oh god. i'm gonna be working tonight.

on valentine's night!

wish me luck because i shall be bombarded with heaps of lovey dovey couples drinking wine and celebrating love.

ick!

okay okay, i'm such a hypocrite because i'm the most pda person ever..

but thats not the point!

the point is that.. i'll be working (!!) after not working for over a month!

i'm a lazy arse and will probably spill food over all the lovey dovey customers (hah! serves them all right!)

meh.

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

happy valentine's day <3

..and it truly isnt.

having said that..

there's this whole other complicating thing going on right now;

should i move in with him?

i want to, that's not a doubt but then there's the whole issue of everything else..

forget about rent, forget about the financial because that's not a problem anymore even if i wont be getting an 'allowance' anymore

i guess, the biggest concern i have is.. what if we break up, what would it be like then.

i just dont want to have my parents point a finger and say, "see la, never listen to us" meaning.. "hah! we have tasted more salt than you have rice and therefore we are right, of course we are right"

sigh, they do have a point. this relationship is still pretty young.. but how do you explain that you just know its something that wont end that easily, neither would it end anytime soon?

***

happy valentine's day my everything,
i love you..
(like monkeys love bananas ;p)

i cant wait for the many more valentine's days that are to come..
..because i'll be spending them with you.

you've managed to show me so many things;
things i havent been able to see.
you give me sight.
you taught me how to believe..
.. and how to trust.
how to have faith in someone else..
to have faith in myself.
you showed me how to let myself go emotionally..
you taught me that its alright to love.

i cant wait to spend 'valentine's day' with you when you get back here.

with love,
yours.

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

pms

i think i've been extremely pms-y lately

i mean, apart from the fact that zik gets it really bad because i'm an explosive that keeps on exploding.
i am also uber indecisive. not to mention i keep eating?
just that i dont look that cute.

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

foot fetish

last night was hilarious!

for the month that i was in singapore, my mother and sister kept complaining about my dear old buffy about his habbits.

i mean, if it were 'he pees everywhere in the room' or 'he drinks too much water and i have to refill it too much' then it would be kind of normal but this complain was really out of the ordinary..

"lynn, your bunny has been humping my leg"

*screeeech*

WHAT?!

my rabbits into inter-species love?

pfft.

dont bullshit me larr..!

then last night came and i saw for myself..

buffy trying to hump my sister's leg.


i think he's into feet

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

idisapoint

some of my singapore shoppings :)

note the pink belt, the little miss naughty shirt.. the red nails..and not to mention the sexy skinny jeans XD

***

***

this is a rottenapple product
and their product is idisapoint;

guranteed to cripple hearts.

it just feels like lately, with everything i say, i drive you away.

sigh..

whats been getting us down so much lately?

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

Remembrance

ZikZak Pte Ltd
Bringing you Pleasure; is My Pleasure.. XD~

time to disassociate

yesterday i headed out to peninsula with richie, sha, dad, mr aziz and this 4 (out of 7) daughters.

yes, i know what you're thinking..

..how the hell does his wife manage to cope?!

that aside, peninsula was scenic, lovely and, well.. country-ish.

i loved it.

the air was fresher and god knew that i needed to get away from it all

the architecture of '10 minute truck' was amazing (according to dad) and i loved the relaxed it made me feel.

we stopped at this place to have some lunch and have wine tasting and stuff like that.

my first class of moscato - Tgallant

i loved the wine and ended up buying two bottles - both moscato, both sweet, light, yummy and addictive - to add to my wine cellar collection XD

after a delish pizza lunch (i've never tasted better pizza) we all headed down for some strawberry picking.

omigodd...!!

its no longer the season but the strawberries were still huge and ripe and just orgasmic.

i adore strawberry picking.

pity mrs aziz's daughters werent really interested and we headed right back after.

what a waste!

we waited for them for 2.5 hours to get ready, drove for an hour and we ended up staying there less than 2 hours!

i was pretty darn pissed off!

they just wanted to go shopping. SHOPPING!?

why go shopping when there's this completely beautiful place that we've brought you to?!

meh.

richie, sha, dad and i bought lobsters back to my place and we ate them together with the freshly picked strawberries after we left.

richie and sha left and we got ready for dinner at rach's place.




the night was pretty interesting that went in a blur of some guy trying to hit on me, drinking, ang pows, origami, gambling and karaoke.

i got the most interesting ang pow packet i have ever come across.

yes, it looks pretty damn ordinary but when i opened it..



it can be swapped around depending on the 'occasion'. *pleased amused look*

shan, i know you collect ang pow packets, if you want this one, you can have it :)

***

bleeding lies

Made it easy,
Made it free,
Made you hurt till you couldn't see.

Sometimes it stops,
Sometimes it flows,
But baby that's how love goes;

You will fly and you will crawl

It's a secret no one tells;
One day it's heaven, one day it's hell.
It's no fairy tale.

You'll laugh, you'd cry,
but no one really knows why

In the end,
No such thing as you've lost it all.

xoxo

you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

i'm crippled by the pain i keep on closing

i feel like i'm the reason for everything wrong in your life..

if i werent this, if i werent that.

would you be happier?

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

kawaii~

dyed my hair brown to get rid of the horrifying bleach streaks that i did last year. pfft. i really need to stop dying my hair on whim.

i've been having sleep retardedness.

i blame it on trying to sleep alone and having a bunny sleep by my feet and waking me by licking my toes and, as evil as this sounds, when he leans on my calves and over heat it. *insert awwwwww here*

i'm singing christian songs and i have no idea why..

i've decided that i will take more care and put in more effort in dressing up this year and this time, i'm going to stick to it!

that means, make up, no nude nails and hair done to look okay.

i shall not let my hair-tardedness get the best of me!

and i'm gonna go beg roycelicious for some make up advice because, to be honest, he's the only one i know that can put make up flawlessly and make it look so cunningly barely there.

i shall detox and lose weight the healthy way ;hopefully exercise free and healthy eating and without puking my guts out into the glory bowl.

meh. and now, dinner beckons..

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]

my vice

so guys, here's a little preview of my purchases from singapore and kl starting from the bottom..

shoe #1
shoe #2


shoe #3



shoe #4



shoe #5 is unavailable but they're flats and are pretty common..

meh, drool with me. how sexy are shoes #4?!

xoxo
you know you love me

[ l y n n d u l g e n c e p r o d u c t i o n s ]