roller coaster ride

the past week has been a roller coaster of emotions.

being away from isaac is damn bloody hard to say the least and we got into numerous fights.

i admit i could have been a little more enduring and such but when something like this happened a couple of times, its time to see and make him wear a little emotional blood.

take exhibit A.

i got up at 9am (aussie time) and had a long full day visiting Max and then work and i get home at about 10.30pm (aus). the agreement with zeke was that we met online after work but he was out with friends so i told him to keep hanging out with them (i mean, how often is he back?)

even though he told me to go to bed if i was tired, i was determined to stay up so that we could have some alone time.. instead, i waited up till 2am (aus) until he got back and then he comes back with a whole bunch of friends. i admit, at this time, i was already starting to be a little annoyed- hang out all day, cant i just get some alone time with him!?

anyway, i didnt say anything and i thought, hey you know, eventually he'd get back to me but no, i waited for 20mins-half an hour for A reply of "i love you" or a kiss emoticon. and that just drove me mad. i mean, wouldnt you? and imagine how mad i felt at about -godknowswhattime-am my time.

bah. yesterday we had a showdown, so to speak.

yelling and shouting at each other on the phone and we just somehow couldnt really meet in the middle.

we finally did but then he had to leave for ROME last night-family holiday.

but thats not the point, the point is..

have a great flight and trip, baby!

xoxo
you know you love me

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