to stay committed

today a friend of mine, kai asked me "how (do i) manage to stay committed" and i realized that people in their 20s do tend to have a bit of an issue about committing (but of course, not generalizing here) and finding the right one and sometimes the one that they found is more interested in raking up notches and bedding all the mr. right nows and are not interested at all about mr. right..


..yet.

come on! when i was in school i just wanted to find mr right nows and if he were right, the 'now' part would just drop off (yes, i realize this is from some book but i dont remember) and i was dating like some desperado (okay okay, i wasnt really thinking about the 'now' part dropping off at all). any slob (some of them nice, some of them were just.. slobs) that returned or showed interest, i dated.

yes, i was that pathetic.

anyway, moving away from the non-point.

he (kai, not the exes) made me realize, once again, how damn lucky isaac and i are..

the point?

zeke, i'm lucky to have you.. and i'm sorry i'm such a bitch.

(i have a huge issue about being selfish and not selfish- selfish that i want isaac to spend time with me online when he's overseas, not selfish by saying that he should spend time with the singaporean friends - how often does he go back anyway, i 'can deal with being apart' and not having 'our' time - and then just being stupid after because he listened to my 'unselfish' side when all i really am IS selfish. aiyayay.. girls are complicated and i really dont think that we understand ourselves most of the time.. well, at least i dont.)

xoxo
you know you love me

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