like really blogged and not just post random pictures up?
so i've been working a little getting paid a measly $10 per hour waitressing (the tips arent bad, i can take home $10-15 per night but..) to save up
yes people, i'm saving up to go down to that country that idiots know about but dont know about malaysia even when malaysia is so much fucking bigger than that measly grain of sand of an island
a thousand and one questions are racing through my head.
what if i dont earn enough?!
i've spent a little too much this month.. about $270ish when i could have saved that money up.
guilty of spending what i could have saved.
i'd take the money that i have out of my savings account but i'm not allowed to touch it yet.
yes, yes, you're probably screaming that i'm 19 and should have the power to just withdraw my savings from since i was young.
but here's the thing, i'm sort of glad i cant.
because, lets face it, i'd spend it all on 'rainy days'.
but anyway, i've been working for approx 3 weeks. maybe for about 5 shifts so i should have $250 but i only have saved half of what i earned.
yes zik, i'm not doing the whole 'going about in circles' thing, again
but anyway, i think its nice to work, even if it is part time, to earn money for something that i wanna do.
now i'm just paranoid about his friends not liking me and stuff like that because i am, lets face it, pretty damned open minded.
what kinda asian girls talk about sex to boys as if she were merely talking about the weather?
(probably one who used to hang more with the boys and then gets thrown to a very sex-deprived,over-educated but highly under-sexed all girls school in melbourne.. but thats not the point. the point is..)
what if i head down to Singapore only to *gasp* be on his parents bad side? what if i say something too open minded to his friends?
ngeargh.
am i worrying too god damn much?
xoxo
you know you love me
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